Loneliness that Turned into Beautiful Solitude
Are you one of those many people who experienced loneliness? The moment where you do not have someone else to rely on. Have you experienced it? Going home with a lot of thoughts running in your mind but no one was there to listen. Have you ever felt bad for yourself? In realizing that you were the only one left. When every one else was leaving. When most people around you have chosen others over you. Have you experienced the pain? The pain of being alone? A lot of people are afraid to be alone for various reasons. Some people says that they are just used to something that there is always someone out there for them. Someone who is always there. Someone who is always ready to accompany them in all. Someone who is always willing to stay. Stays in your best and most especially at your worst. While others simply do not have the courage to face the world of loneliness. I, experienced the pain of loneliness but gained a lot of benefit from it.
Living alone is not a simple thing for me to do but for me to survive and acquire proper education, I have to. I have to learn to live alone. In living alone, I had face a lot of difficulties. I encountered a lot of problems that were made to be fixed by many but was able to get it fixed by myself. Yes it was hard, it is hard. It was never easy to begin with. There will be times or days that it can make you drain and cause you countless sleepless nights. Yes, it is painful. But we have to realize that in loneliness, we can also find peace in ourselves. The "YOU". The genuine "YOU".
People are so afraid to experience loneliness. Most of us do not realize that with so much fear of being alone, we started to forget that good things come from being alone. As time pass by, I got used in solving problems by myself, I learned to live alone, I saw the "beauty of loneliness" that's how my loneliness slowly turned into beautiful solitude. As time passes by, I realized that there are a lot of good things that you can get in being alone. So, for those who are reading this, I hope you guys learn to appreciate the beauty of being alone.
The journey of how I won people’s hearts by having a winning heart
Whatever happens tonight, I am a winner. That was the last line I delivered in front of the roaring crowd. My knees were trembling and my smile was shaking. I wanted to radiate confidence but I knew inside me were whirling storms of uncertainty. I wasn’t sure how to carry on for the rest of the night, it was only the first hour and my soul was already exhausted. I stood in front of an unfamiliar sea of people, I felt uncomfortable as they fixed their glances on me. The stage was bright and flashy as my co-contestants glazed the platform with outstanding physique and beauty. I couldn’t look straight at them because every time I did, a bucketful of insecurity was being poured on me. The whole pageant took about a few hours but it felt like eternity to me. I repeatedly asked myself questions every single time I stood on that platform. My vision was impaired by the blinding spotlights and all I could hear were the deafening roar of the audience combined with the booming music of the event. My head was filled with questions like “why are you here?”, “Will you be okay?” What will others think of you?” “What if you fail?”. Every step was heavier as I continued to overthink.
For a moment on stage, I felt like I was floating. I was staring blankly at the end of the gymnasium. I was awakened by the loud cheer from the front row, I fixed my glance and saw large letters A-B-Y. it was like a snap to reality, I realized that’s my name. This time I could hear the synchronized cheers of people screaming my name. I smiled, walked away from the spotlight as I whispered to myself “let’s do this”. As the curtains opened, I walked towards the stage I felt lighter and different from the person a while ago. Walking was much easier and my knees weren’t trembling any longer. I stood at the edge of the stage, wandered my glance, and smiled genuinely. Flashing those pearly whites took barrels of longtime stored courage from within me. I marveled at how I could see the rainbow in the lights, the spotlights weren’t blinding anymore.
My feet started stomping to the music every time I pose and my hips would flawlessly sway to the music. The roar of the audience was overwhelming no more, it was like whispers lost in the beat of the music. I knew as I stood there, all I needed to do was smile and be myself. My name was called accompanied by the thunderous applause and booming cheers of the crowd. I stood there alongside with other contestants. I was holding a bouquet and a trophy. I could feel the heavy crown on top of my head. However, the trophy beside me was much bigger, the lady beside me wore an even flashier crown, it was the crown of the titleholder. That night I landed the first runner-up spot. My head was filled with “what ifs”. What if I did just a little better, what if I exerted more effort and so on.
As I stepped down on stage, several people rushed to me. They were jumping, screaming and clapping. It was so chaotic that it took me a millennium to recognize them, it was my family. They were hugging me from all directions. When I saw their smiles I knew I did great. I realized that was what I meant when I said “whatever happens tonight I am a winner”. Their presence, genuine smiles, and warm hugs meant more than the trophy and sash that night. For them, I was a star who shined through the darkness of the night. Before leaving the venue, a hand tapped me from behind “Congrats,” she whispered I turned to see her, and to my surprise she was a schoolmate who used to tease me because of my chubby physique.
I smiled as I expressed my gratitude towards her. As I walked away, I realized that I accomplished something legendary that night. I was able to showcase that pageants are not only for thin-looking, tall people. I managed to snatch everyone’s attention with this average height and chubby body. That night started with so much uncertainty and insecurity. As I stared at my reflection, I looked exhausted but I was wearing a different smile. A smile of victory and bravery. A smile that defeated the stereotypes and stigma about people like me. That night ended with a realization that maybe winning isn’t always about winning the crown, it’s about winning people’s hearts and having a winning heart.
How can I be sure in my life when I'm indecisive? We all make decisions, but let's be honest that it is not easy to decide like which is which. We all have to consider all the things that can affect our decisions. Since then, making decisions for myself was never been so easy like what should I take, what should I pick and many more. I find it struggling because even though all I want for myself is for the good, I cannot have it because I don't even have the sureness in my life.
As I lay down in my bed at night, I always think the what ifs in my life. "What if I choose that over the other, would it be better?" those kinds of questions. Yes, it is hard being indecisive that you cannot have at least 90% happiness of the decision you made because you're not even sure about it and you will just feel happiness if the results are good. I am the kind of person who just go with the flow and doesn't even bother with the problems that must be taken seriously. I am thankful for the people especially to my friends who are always there to help me out in my life. People think that I'm the type of person who is happy-go-lucky but the truth is I'm just showing that I'm always happy but deep inside of me, I'm not. I'm really questioning myself that makes me overthink sometimes. To be able to help myself, I searched online about tips in making a decision. I know that I'm being "OA" because of this, but actually it helps me. I am trying to apply all the readings I read whenever I make decisions.
Right now, I am somewhat happy and contented because I make decisions that I'm fully sure of. We must not take all the things as a joke, especially in making decisions. I don't want to have those feelings again that I had before. We must all help ourselves whenever we have problems. We cannot depend on others forever. You can reach out, but remember that you yourself is the key to end up the problems that you're into. So, let's all do the things that we can do today because there are many things waiting ahead of us.
OVERCOMING OVERTHINKING: In the Search for the Intangible Three
“You’ll never know the feeling of drowning unless you experience it yourself.” Let’s admit it. We all have dark hours. When our thoughts go wild and haunt us into uncertainty with every second making us ponder over “what if’s” and “what could have been’s”. It is a phase where we can’t scream for help and can’t seem to stand firmly from the quicksand of doubts. The demons within whispers into our ears, casting curses of insecurities, doubts and fears until it becomes our lullabies. The way we live and mingle with our friends and family, everything get affected. It’s like we weren’t given a chance to be happy. We become irrational to the point where what we think affects what we do. We hunger to be free from the chains that keeps on dragging us down to the inferno of mischief in our minds. An internal battle where fear shackles reality and we helplessly become vulnerable prisoners of our barren thoughts. We analyze beyond things and dive into the sea of impossibilities – until we apparently drown and lose.
But not all overthinkers lets their guard down and get defeated by their internal horror. Some still manage to get revive from drowning. They realize that the cure can be found- and it lies within ourselves. An eye for an eye. A tooth for a tooth. And a heart over an idea. Instead of being paranoid, why not oppose these unhealthy thoughts? In fact, you are in control of your mind and the key to get rid of your nightmares lies between the heart and brain. You need to understand yourself first to know what the main problem is. You overthink mainly because you think you are incomplete. You forget the three concepts that will rid your lackness and incapabilities. It is the intangible gift of trust, love and faith.
TRUST You tend to overthink because you let your doubts take over something, someone and even yourself. It’s where your trust is being deprived and neglected and you end up being unaware of it. You easily get sensitive over something and secrete negative emotions that get the best of your well being. How to Gain Trust? Entitling trust to anybody is not easy. It encompasses a complicated process of accepting risks and gambling with what the future might turn into; “self-trust” is the very first step. You need to believe in your capabilities and what you can do beyond what anyone expects. Value yourself. And trust me, as you break your wall and assess people critically, your intuition will tell you who you can trust whole heartedly and who to avoid.
FAITH You focus too much on your greeds and possessions. To have all the worldly possesions, to have the latest gadgets or to become someone powerful and influencial but each day turns out to be a chain of the same routine: wake up each morning and make your dreams and fantasies into reality and go to sleep at night dreaming more and more. You want attention in an instant way. You want everything that comes across your mind to be in the palm of your hands in just a snap that you forget about the idea of God’s perfect plans and His process. You become so preoccupied by the material things and titles that you want to possess – until you get drained. Your mind will still be stuck with the ideas you continuously feed yourself. Your mind no longer creates inspirations, but instead create insecurities. These unhealthy thoughts will dim your vision. Your perspective becomes clouded and the only thing that seems clear is hopelessness. It will intoxicate you – little by little. How to Gain Faith? Dreaming is not bad at all, in fact it serves as our motivation in studying or working hard to be able to meet these. What we need to keep in mind that there is a process, and the bigger the dream, the harder the process. Going to churches and attend masses is not the only way to strengthen your faith. It can also be done at home. You can still revive and keep the fire burning inside yourself. Always be reminded that you are not alone. Not having someone on your side during your darkest hour doesn’t mean no one loves you and nobody would like to extend their hand to you. Challenges in life isn’t solved by“teamwork”. Many of it are meant to be done by ourselves to hone our independence. Self-reflection is beneficial in strengthening faith. Open your heart and cease the moment. Be open and accept failures and try to look at it as life lessons God wants us to learn. We need to carry our own cross. Breathe. Inhale your aspirations, get fueled by that scorching eagerness in your heart. Let your life be driven with passion and entrust Him with everything. Try to read bible verses and you will realize how God Almighty truly loves you. He talks to us through different forms, He always saves us, and He is not dead. He lives inside our hearts, waiting for us to come back to Him.
SELF-LOVE Love is not only the affection between two matters inhibited with a soul, it is transformational. It comes in various yet mysterious ways. It is undefinable. It is a complex feeling that everyone yearns for. And as we welcome the era of modernism, we also see the world with standards and setting finish lines. “We do because we want to” over “we do because we love to” has become extremely evident in our time. Among all the kinds of love, its ironic how self-love is one of the hardest ones to find. You try to fill the emptiness within with inappropriate thoughts but can’t match what pure self-love could be. It messes your mind and haunts you each day. We are complex beings and we always complicate things- but we end up forgetting our essence.
How to Gain Self-love? Self-care is a partial requirement to attain successful self-love. Learn to express how you feel with freedom without crossing its boundaries. Get to know more with who you really are and discover more about yourself. Do not let yourself be confined with the standards of society. Free yourself from judgments and get to know your perception without being influenced by other’s way of thinking. Do what your heart tells you to do. Do what makes you happy. Do without hesitations. Just be yourself. Know your self-worth; accept your flaws and imperfections while celebrating your strengths and filling your heart and mind with gladness. You are not a leftover or a trash but rather, you are a beautiful God-made gift. Always remember that. These three missing intangibles are the powerful gems hiding inside us. Though as we lose it, it is not that easy to put it back to where it once was. Overcoming overthinking isn’t an easy process. It is a fight within ourselves. It is a trial beyond what our eyes can see and what our hands can touch. Have a regular check up with yourself and see if you are emotionally healthy. It is something that we should take care of before we lose the game called life and get tricked by our wild thoughts. Remember that as we dig deeper through uncertainties, we also dig the pits where our thoughts will bury us into.
As someone who has been a "silent re-taker" in the Board Licensure Examination for Psychologists and Psychometricians (BLEPP) 2019, I want to continue helping out some people through a vlog. So, I made this video to answer some questions about my journey. I know the struggle (being a silent BLEPP warrior) how hard it was that you can't ask questions to other people because no one knew that you are planning to take the licensure examination for some valid reasons. Who knows if there are some Candy readers out there who are having the same struggle too, right? DISCLAIMER: This was my first ever sit-down Q & A, so please bear with me. HAHAHAHAHA. :) Here's the link to my vlog: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5-Deiowvzg
To the guy who ruined my eyeliner:
The final hours of December twenty-fifth drips down in form of rain. The day was fine, all fine, except today I redid my eyeliner three times. The intricate dark lines on my eyelids are weak against old memories, pictures; and most importantly, wet lashes. You cannot imagine how frustrated I was the third time I had to redo them, all because of you. It was five days before Christmas when you told me you no longer wanted to be with me. Cruel, entirely cruel; and in the first few days after that I was begging you to come back. I was a mess and rightfully so. I did lose two years. I did lose your voice in the morning. I did lose the person I love the most.
But during the first two days after our breakup, I could not bring myself to put on eyeliner, as such I had nothing to fix except an empty void in my heart. It was only after three days when I started to regain my will to do anything other than cry. I put on good music, threw on my favorite clothes, and finally drew the lines on my eyelids. The perfect black lines that said, hey, I'm taking care of myself. Hey, I deserve to feel pretty. Hey, I'm moving on. And the entire day, it felt like I was.
December twenty-fourth started with that same, sane energy. I was going to be better for myself, I said. But that Christmas eve, I only felt dead. I slept at nine and woke up some minutes after twelve o'clock. I had missed Christmas. There were no fireworks, no chatter, no lively noche buena. There was only silence. No message from you. I could feel your absence because it weighed too heavily in the air.
You had always been my Christmas wish, every year fulfilled, until that night. I cried then, until the morning of the twenty-fifth. In the afternoon, I tried to get better. Another set of makeup, to cover up the sadness beneath. I went up to my room after, and tried to get some sleep, but I only cried. I redid my makeup. And then cried again, and again. And it was tiring having to redo my eyeliner multiple times, when it was so easily erased by the wetness of my eyes and the old, fading memories. You broke me apart on Christmas and I was obsessed with getting better. I cannot say that I won't cry again, or I won't miss you again, but I want you to know that I will get through this, one stroke of a black line at a time.
Focus On Your Own Battle
Have you ever felt so down because you think you are not worthy enough? Have you ever felt the feeling that you are tired and everything is just the same like nothing’s new and so unproductive? Did giving up came into your mind? It’s a sad reality that people have to choose between two things just to not disappoint others. It sucks and suffocating that you have to always comply to be loved.
I was used to be a “just-go-with-the-flow” person. I do not care about my wants as long as the people I’m with are happy. I was afraid to be judged and rejected by others. I don’t want to be alone. But then I realized that the more I depend on other’s sentiment, I am losing my happiness and passion. I felt that I’m stuck in a cage and there is no chance for me to discover and develop. Developing what you are passionate about is the hardest thing in this world if you are forcing yourself to do the things you don’t like. Sometimes you anticipate that this is what you want but in reality, it is not. You are just blinded by the fact that this is what the people around you want you to do, but deep within yourself you know it is not what you love.
People around you will never be contented. All of the things you have done will never be enough for them to be satisfied so stop complying. Stop depending on other people and start to stand on your own feet. Have the courage to keep in mind that not everyone can be pleased and learn how to be grateful to the people who appreciate you. In life, you will realize that every people you met has its purpose. People come and go. Some are just bypassing. Some are just using you. Some will be a lesson to you so be with it. Quit considering the opinions of others.
Live on your own. Be contented with what you have. The greatest thing you can give to yourself is happiness, as long as you know who you are and what makes you happy it doesn’t matter how others will see you.
My childhood dreams...
When I was in Grade 1, I dreamed of becoming a doctor. I was always been in check-ups and I thought maybe being a doctor will be interesting... I always dreamed of going to other places in the world. I wanted to be a flight attendant or a foreign interpreter when I reached Grade 3. I liked speaking other languages because it is easier to communicate with other people who have different languages.
My main childhood dream was to become a mechanical engineer because I was fascinated by different brands of cars. I even made a toy car out of a correction tape refill. I wanted also to be a mechanical engineer because I was inspired by my cousin who is now a licensed mechanical engineer.
These dreams changed when I entered Grade 10. I should let go of my childhood dream as I have finally seen my capability and my calling. I wanted to be a journalist and I wanted to see more of the world and what happened in the world around us. I always write stories and content whenever I have free time.
Now, as an incoming Grade 12 Humanities student, I will do my best to reach my dream as a journalist. These childhood dreams served as an inspiration to strive harder to live and to pursue our dreams. It may be changed as we become older, but these served as an example to contribute to society.
Education Depicted Through Movies
As we go through this pandemic that happens all over the world, we tend to do anything just to fight our boredom. Watching movies is a great way to eliminate boredom. Netflix as a source of different movies can help you learn a lot. It may change the way you see things, it can change your attitude, it can be the reason for you to be inspired doing other things beyond your limitations.
A movie titled "SAME KIND OF DIFFERENT AS ME" was based on the inspiring true story of international art dealer Ron Hall (Greg Kinnear), who befriends a homeless man (Djimon Hounsou) in hopes of saving his struggling marriage to Debbie (Renée Zellweger), a woman whose dreams will lead all three of them on the most remarkable journey of their lives.
This is a movie where you can learn the importance of being a honest partner. It can also change the way you see things. Those negative sides can turn into positive. Changes on our attitude are a bit hard to see but time will come that you'll realize the difference between our past and present characteristics. This changes can happen when we are in pain, when we are in guilt, when we are in our deepest and hardest challenges in life. This movie is worth watching because you'll learn many other things that you won't expect.
Another movie from Netflix that I am highly recommending is the movie titled "100 Meters" that is another yet based on a true story of a Spanish man with Multiple sclerosis who tried to finish an iron-man triathlon after being told he wouldn't make it 100 meters. A movie that will tell us to have more determination of what we want to do in life. Never get depress for what would others say, instead make it as your inspiration to do what the others think you cannot. Courage and trust in yourself will bring you to your astonishing success. The movie also portrays how to build a positive relationship with our father-in-law. In a very unexpected situations, we have to adapt in able to learn new things in life.
It is okay to binge watch during this pandemic but don't ever forget being physically fit. After watching try to do some exercise, if possible, invite your family on doing it and have some bonding. Don't pressure yourself on doing heavy load of school requirements, take a deep breath and if you need to relax just watch this movies on Netflix and I am sure that your determination and inspiration in doing those requirements will surely be boosted. Always remember that life is a continuous learning and we should admit that nobody is perfect and at least we tried to be.
CHOICES: Writing Your Own Story
When we were kids, we often hear the question: “What do you want to be when you grow up?” Without hesitation, we answer, “I want to be a pilot. I want to be a doctor. I want to be rich. And, the list goes on.” It’s always been an easy question for kids, but when we grow up and see the realities of life, we stop talking about our dreams.
We are afraid other people will just laugh at us. For a kid, coming from a not so well-off family, ideas seem to be impossible to reach. We often stop pursuing our dreams the moment we became aware of its impossibilities. Reality always bites, leaving a mark that we cannot afford the tuition fees and other expenses concerning the flying school, medical school, and the like. But we always fail to reconsider different possible ways of reaching our foreseen destinations. We forget about detours and other routes. We forget about other means of transportation. We forget about other avenues of approach.
The bottom line, we let our fear of failures overpower us. In life, we must remember Graham Brown’s words, “LIFE IS ABOUT CHOICES. Some we regret, some we’re proud of. Some will haunt us forever. The message: WE ARE WHAT WE CHOOSE TO BE.” No matter how we get rid of our dreams, no matter how we choose to forget about them, in the end, our thoughts will keep haunting us – pushing us to taste regrets for letting things passed by without even giving a try. We can’t just say it’s not meant to be. We can’t blame destiny for facing misfortunes. We must accept that we’re the reason why we ended this way.
We have written our own destiny, and we must take accountability for what we’ve done to ourselves. A dream knows no age. Whether we do it when we’re twenty or ninety, it won’t make any difference. The moment we realize what went wrong, it’s up to us if we’ll make a move to make things right before our journey ends. After all, Paulo Coelho once said, “when we want something, all the universe will conspire to help us achieve it.” We might get old, but our childhood dreams will forever be in our hearts. It’s either it was fulfilled a long time ago, or it is still finding its way out. If given a chance to catch our dreams, are you willing to break free or keep it forever?
Living in a new world
What I learned with culture shock I'm sure that each one of us has a moment or time in our life where we change. We experience something, and that’s where we grow. We all have different experiences where we learn something big where we change. For me, it was culture shock. And here’s my story.
I’m a Filipino who grew up in the middle east for 13 years. I barely had any friends growing, I was an outcast. Moving into the Philippines for college, I thought that I was prepared for the challenges. Well, I was very wrong. And moving into the Philippines where everyone is known to be welcoming, I was excited. I was excited to have new friends and to meet new people. But growing up as an outcast my whole life, I unfortunately never got to develop my social skills. So I broke nearly every rule of socializing. The one thing I didn’t have at the time was sensitivity. I was very straight forward with my words and actions. And I was subconsciously disrespecting people. And it was the first time I felt liberated. I took advantage of my freedom. I completely regret my actions, but at the same time, I’m glad I made those mistakes because I learned a lot from them. I believe that if I hadn’t made those mistakes, I wouldn’t have changed.
I never had the opportunity to socialize where I grew up. And with the mistakes I made, I didn’t just learn how to socialize. I learned respect and sensitivity. Being in the Philippines for less than a year, I already learned a ton of lessons. This is just one of the moments of my life where I’ll grow. Being young, I still have a lot more to know and a lot more to experience. All of us make mistakes. And what matters is that we learn from those mistakes and that every day we strive to be better than yesterday.
I have a nephew. He is still a toddler. He likes cars and flying humans. His eyes are clear and wide. When he looks up at me, his eyes resemble a deer’s. His gaze holds so much hope and galaxies that twinkle with fierce humanity. It is the look of childhood innocence.
A long time ago, I held that gaze too. Whenever I looked at myself in the mirror, my reflection would always ask me, “What are you doing next? What interesting stories have you heard? Was today fun?” Now my gaze is different. My eyelids reach only a certain level. They do not rise like they did before. Mostly, I squint or lazily stare downwards. Every second of an individual’s life is his/her battle with his/her very nature. This also implies that every second, a person is at his/her very best.
While babysitting my nephew, we were in an isolated room. A room reserved at the top floor of the house. The sun shines melancholy when it sets and the windows of the room help create shadows of vertical lines. My nephew was playing with miniature figurines. He was looking at those toys like they were alive, talking and the very best thing at the moment. What wonders were they doing together? What kind of world has his imagination curated again? When I call his name, he looks at me not as if I interrupted him, but he was also aware of both worlds he is residing as if at any moment, anyone would call him.
However, sometimes he fails to hear my call. So immersed in his own world. When children become adults, some time in their life, they will ponder with this question, “Have I become a good adult?” That adult self that wonders, is an adult who succeeds in reflecting. The past is the past, present and the future. The present is the present, past and future. The future is the future, present and past. This is because all three is life itself.
Childhood innocence is the preservation of childhood memories and experiences. Not the purity of being a child. If a person has pushed his or her memories when he or she was a child, he is a failed adult. The gaze says it all. The eyes tell no lies.
Why our high school barkada is the best?
Remembering our high school years entails quite a lot reminiscing of the things we all been through when we were younger. You’ve experience a lot of new things during those 4 wonderful years and did most of them with the few people you consider your barkada. And through a series of all the lunch breaks you had together, the walks you took on the way home, and taking the same classes, you never thought you’d survive, you have made your life’s greatest friends.
Here are some of the reasons why your high school barkada is the best:
1. You figured out early teenage life together. The transition one have undergone from being a kid to a teenager wasn’t easy. For a moment you are not sure whether you should have played with your friends during recess or you should have just sat down and ate your food because you were too old for games. But whatever it is you chose to do, having friends who were as clueless as you make everything feel easier because you know, deep down, you’d figure things out eventually. You just need good company.
2. They were with you during your “jeje“ days. I bet you have pictures taken with Camera360 and Retrica. You also have pictures edited using Pizap with embarrassing captions and you somehow kept some of them so you could have something to post online during their birthdays.
3. They know all your exes. They will never EVER forget the name of an ex-boyfriend, an ex-fling, an ex-crush, and an almost you had. They will remind you of your every questionable love decision but you’ll just laugh anyway while saying “Past is past”.
4. They never judge you. They have welcomed you to their lives when you thought jelly shoes and checkered polos were the bomb! They were quick to have told your teachers that you were not feeling well so you could go home when you really just needed to poop. You tell them every embarrassing story you have and were fine with it.
5. You can always count on them. From the moment you first fell in love and the moment you first had your heart broken, they were with you. They were with you the moment you lost a parent and at moments when you thought you had nothing. Through every break-up and breakthrough, they were there to be your support system.
6. They are your family. Your high school friend’s family is your own family’s extension. Their parents are like your own. Don’t you feel a little kilig whenever your friend’s parents call you “anak”? And then eventually calling them mama and papa became so natural? I felt that, all the time.
7. They will always be your home. They are your place of refuge and security, the place who offers you their hands when you feel lost and the place you run to when you need saving. No matter how much time and distance separate you, they will be the one’s that you always long for and they are the one’s that you will always return to.
You're gonna bend and break and then at some point in your life, you feel like you don't want to fall in love again.
Not because you're no longer capable of loving but because you're so afraid to get hurt again that you don't want to take a risk anymore. And you're gonna wake up one day and realize that you're not the same person as you were yesterday. The heart aches, heartbreaks, frustration, you'll see, those will transform your whole being into something better.
Honey, move forward. Let go off all the things that are not meant for you. Let go of all the people who hurt you and take you for granted. Don't be stuck feeling miserable.
And don't turn that love into hate when you resent someone for hurting you or for breaking your heart. Just wish them well and let them go. Welcome the possibility of a beautiful love that will come your way. You're worthy of love that you keep on giving to other people. Keep that in mind.
I wish you well and all the happiness. You deserve it.
Here we are — with rough hands entwined, damned hearts at peace, broken souls resting with ease —savoring each passing moment before we part ways...hoping things will turn out to be okay. Here we are — standing still, keeping our earnest desire and ardent passion for each other at bay — hoping the Universe will finally grant us of the day that we no longer have to pretend... that things will no longer have to end.
Here we are — with crooked smiles, lingering touch that will last for a while -- gathering all the remaining courage to set each other free. Wishing for the day that our hearts will no longer have to worry. Here we are letting each other go. Even though we both know that the future is uncertain. Even though we're unsure if our paths will cross once again.
My name is Vin Kolby Ty, I am 17 years old and I am 5'9 Feet tall, I live in Cebu City Philippines and I'm currently studying in a public school at Bulacao Community High School (BCHS) taking TVL track 'Bread and Pastry Production', I am also a freelance photographer based in Cebu City, I also love dancing and i even joined a dancing crew at our school and won our first dancing competition last November 2019 at an event of Titus Ph in Gaisano Grand Mall Cebu City. Being an Actor and a Model had always been my dream ever since i was a kid and I will try hard to achieve my dreams.
Hi, my sister sent me this link :)
I would like my vlog to be featured in Candy! I believe that if my vlog gets featured in Candy, I will be able to help more aspiring med students! I made this a Youtube vlog just like three weeks ago. So far, I have been receiving messages that they find my med school videos informative! My vlog focuses on med school tips :) So far, these are my content:
Check out the Med School Interview tips I have for UPCM, St. Luke’s, UERM, and ASMPH here: https://youtu.be/lnxqhIktcIM
Check out what’s in my Med Kit for ward works here: https://youtu.be/FbiyerNMkJ4
If you haven’t watched Hospital Playlist, let us tell you why you should watch it here: https://youtu.be/mDOcM-Jd1e8
Do you have any Med School Worries? Watch this! Candy Cutie Eljohn Yee might have answered it:
Wanna know more about UPCM Intarmed? Click here: https://youtu.be/XnKtPxQYIkg
Thank you! Hope we can both work together to inspire med students :)