Here's my two cents on the letter, call for help of our medical frontliners. Let’s hear what our healthcare workers have to say and try to understand it from their point of view, they have every right to criticize how this medical crisis is being handled by the government... after all, they're the experts on the topic. Though we see the frontliners as heroes in our eyes, the lack of concrete plans from the government to combat COVID-19 makes them feel otherwise. Healthcare workers are already starting to voice out how they feel as though they are being sacrificed as they follow through their sworn oath. We wouldn’t send our soldiers to war unarmed and without a concrete plan; the same should be expected for our frontliners. How can we send them to battle without proper gear? Why is there still a debate on whether mass testing is needed or not when the experts on that field continuously insist its importance in flattening the curve? Why is this still not the priority when it’s literally our lives on the line? It’s not like the medical experts demanding for mass testing are just stating their opinion about this mindlessly, they studied this laboriously. Make them feel heard so that all the sacrifices that they’re doing and all the deaths of their colleagues are not in vain. More than the words of praises, what our medical professionals truly need right now is TANGIBLE support. Here is to hoping they get that soon. @errren.22
*Minor edits have been made for clarity
Those people who stand to correct your grammar privately were the one who deserves to give much appreciation. Considering how professional they act by not correcting you publicly at the most inappropriate situations is a huge relief, indeed. My point is, it is unprofessional if you stand to correct a person who is grammatically incorrect in public. What do you think he/she would feel? Maybe, seeing themselves rectified in front of many people is a shameful act for them. You wouldn't know what someone will feel unless you were in his position. Some people will intend to correct you publicly to praise themselves as they are not the one who is mistaken. Like it is already in their nature that if they correct someone in public, it makes them much more of a person. They know it's a wrongful act, but they continue doing it. Nowadays, some people become attention seeker and self-proclaimed professionals and will do anything to impress people around them. But some can correct you by doing it nicely with a proper approach, so if you define yourself as a 'decent person make sure how to act like one. Do correct some grammatical errors decently, or else your attitude will be rectified and see yourself in a trend you would like, negatively. #GrammaRealization
A girl does what she should have done years ago. But like what they say, it's better late than never, right? 15 year old me would be fainting right now but she's not here so my 21 year old self would do it in behalf of her. To provide context, I have always dreamed of writing for Candy magazine. I collected so much of the physical copies that my mother cannot stand the sight of it towering over my floor anymore (My bookcase is filled with books already. Forgive me.) In my defense, I'm doing research. For that reason, my best friend tells me I sound like a Candy magazine article from 2016. Yes, I studied Communication Theory and Feature Writing from Candy. One day, maybe I will get the chance to formally write for Candy and live my dream. Who knows? Maybe this is the start.
Fast forward to 2020, while we are in the midst of a pandemic which resulted to us staying indoors without our own choosing, I have been thinking a lot. I resigned from my Marketing job before the ECQ happened because I wanted to go to graduate school and do what I love which is writing. I graduated with a degree in Communication, majoring in Journalism. I know I have to write. A lot sprung out from this pandemic, other than the relentless cry for Mass Testing and shutting down of a prominent media company, other people learned how to do a thing or two. Others settled with gardening or pottery. Some honed their craft, opening commissions one by one online.
In my case, I fell in love again with writing. After experiencing author block for such a long time, I managed to produce 4 chapters for my novel (which I’m not sure if I’ll ever finish) and also curate a collection of all my written works to be sold online (a work in progress that I’m hoping will come to fruition). While my desperation and creative juices were pumping, my best friend would not stop telling me to contribute to Candy magazine. I could have submitted an article years ago but I always reasoned that I didn’t want to.
Honestly, I’m just scared of rejection. I feel like I’m not good enough to be associated with such a name. I didn’t want to get my hopes up only for it to crumble down. So here I am with a piece of advice for all the young writers out there who needs a little push. I know it’s hard to get past that doubt in your head that you will never live up to the standards you’ve created but know this, these are all road blocks that prevent you from achieving what you want. Road blocks that you have established which hinders yourself from improving. You have to loosen up and do your craft with that same innocence you’ve had when you started.
Unlearning bad habits is definitely a process but you will reap fantastic results regardless. No one’s immediately good at their craft so you have to take the risk and just go for it. Take everything with a grain of salt, open your mind and write. What’s important is you will always have lessons to bring with you from each experience. I wish I had these words when I was 15. I could’ve joined the school paper when I was in high school. I could’ve been more active like Jo March was in New York, handing out her life’s work to be published. I could’ve made more opportunities for myself.
If I heard these words before, it could’ve helped with my confidence and I won’t be struck with regret now. If you need a sign to create art, this is it. Don’t ever forget you have lots of room to grow which means you will get better at what you practice. Shoot your shot, pass that article, open for commissions, or write that fan fiction for your ship. You’re a talented, young individual and time will grace you with more talent. Best of luck!
Title: 25 and far from ageless
In as much as I’d like to focus on the delish Greek salad being served to me, I can’t help but notice the girl downing her venti sized Milo Godzilla next to my table. You see, her very presence radiates the grace of a young woman- unwrinkled, unshackled, and unafraid. What hit me the most is how she can rock a formless oversized shirt and make herself look like your regular girl next door, straight out of the cute Koreanovelas. She completed her foolproof look by pairing it with a wide-leg pants and chunky shoes.
If I am the one caught wearing that right now, I’d be shamed by society. Their closed-lips, glances, and smirks will be screaming “girl, you look so matanda”. With an intense sigh, I tried to process my train of thoughts. I am forced to be 25 and its scares the aging woman in me to accept that indisputable truth about time and life. The days of my time-honored youthfulness has come to pass, and my inner maturity is finally ready to take center stage. To be honest, I wasn’t this scared when I was 24, but reality hit me hard when housing agents gave me tons of flyers for new condominium units or how bankers asked me if I want to consider applying for a platinum credit card.
Once, a kid even gave up his seat for me! When did I get so old? It is as if the additional one year abruptly granted me the opportunity to sign off any type of lease or investment and be part of a totally new demographic. A demographic that is both scary and exciting. A demographic not for the young and faint-hearted. As I take a bite of my leafy dish, I shifted my perspective to the idea that this year might not be bad at all. My quarter-of-a-century existence may bring about a new level of challenges which may harden my core, strengthen my spirit, and refine my very essence as a woman.
A part of me is horrified of developing permanent creases and dynamic laugh lines, yet I am mesmerized by the fact these lines can show the world how I lived my life. I may not have the same sugar craving or metabolism of a 15-year old, but I sure am ready to take on healthier and better choices to improve myself. 10 step skincare routine? Make it 20 because I have all these eye creams and moisturizers ready to be smothered on my drying skin. Also, I am sincerely learning to embrace and accept my new definition for “party.” A REAL party is spent by pursuing interesting endeavors like sleeping at home, watching Netflix alone, and eating ice cream when no one is around. For the last time, I looked at my empty plate. A warmth of satisfaction enveloped me. So here I am, 25 and far from ageless.
A Simple Learner Who's a Great Pretender
Maybe I'm just a learner, not a weirdo. A learner that knows how to listen and pretend. A simple learner who's a great pretender. Pretending to be slightly dumb enough not to be judged and criticized by those who do not appreciate my existence. We surround ourselves with people who's levels are either beyond or below our intellectual behavior, because as for reality, people may use you either for their success or your downfall. Since then, people tend to judge someone who has an intellect with things they shouldn't be. Making them a criticizer, and most of all, calling them weird.
Honestly, I'm one of this "weirdo" who actually loves to learn things, and for the record, I'm bullied and stressed out for making myself not to learn more and go with the flow to dumbness I had. Have you ever feel being assigned to some task where you know every process to make it easier and faster to finish but turns out to hesitate to voice out because some of your mates put themselves in charge. There are times where I know what to do, what to say, or how to react, but kept myself silent and pretend not to know anything that may help us. Maybe it's a good thing to just go with their ideas and learn from their perspectives, but sometimes you can't control it and says something, and once again called to be a weirdo and let you finish the work by yourself.
It's annoying that you only know one process yet they gave you the whole work and let you finish it by yourself because they insist that "MAGALING KA DIBA?". It's not your fault being an intellectual person, knowing such things that may help you to pursue your dreams, and have the basic knowledge about something. You don't need to know everything, just the basics. And as for those people who do not appreciate your existence, let them be and continue what's the best for you. In some cases, you'll be annoyed by this but most of the time you'll be thankful for it. Not for now but maybe later. Just be yourself either a weirdo, a great pretender, or a simple learner, and always remember to lower your voice and behavior because no one loves that.
Just be a great pretender not to hear any runts and be a good learner that appreciates everything. It's out of nowhere thoughts of mine, but simply I leave you this my favorite life quotation; "Don't introduce yourself, Let your success introduce you"
I don't know. by Mariella Ysabel Amatus
I don’t know what to do. I feel lost. I don’t know what to do. I feel alone. I don’t know what to do. I feel abandoned. Dreams are things we ought to have. Without them, we might never know where will our future take us. We seem to be trained to have them. I want to be a nurse. I want to be a doctor. I want to be an engineer. I want to be a lawyer. Those are the lines children tell in front of people. It seems simple to dream. To have an ambition. Well, I thought it is. But, now, as I put a book on my lap, thinking about where my fate will lead me, it isn’t.
I feel drowned in the responsibility of knowing what I wanted. The season of college entrance tests are coming. Yet, I feel nothing but doubtful. I studied, but now, I am not doing such a thing. I felt so engrossed the last time I checked myself months ago. Now, I am unsure of what I want to do. I have to study. Yes, I know. However, I feel so dismissive to do something. I can’t even point out what’s the problem in me.
What am I doing? I must go, open some books, and study hard. But, I am never doing it in this present moment. Instead of challenging myself with tons of knowledge, I am here writing this passage with my mind resonating with unspoken words and truth. I seem insane, right? What will happen to me if I keep on doing nothing? Well, simple. I will never be successful - I know that. Then, what must I do?
Asking myself such a question will never suffice what I really need. Because, I’ve been asking myself questions all the time. Yet, I’ve never come up with answers. I don’t know what to do. I feel like being pained. I don’t know what to do. I feel like being tortured. I don’t know what to do. I feel like being misunderstood. I don’t know what to do. I don't know.
A Stranger "Things"
strangers can be not strangers, they can be someone else
Isn't it intimidating to interact with strangers? Majority will say "yes" certainly. No doubt, parents also come up with their very classic "Don't talk to strangers" smart advice for their children. But come to realize to take the opposite approach of it as we grow older, there's a tangled idea in our head it it is beneficial or not.
Finding comfort to someone we don't know is like finding a needle in the bunch of hay. A blurry-blurry thing, a no-percent no-possibility to happen. But not to compare, for others it's like their way of finding comfort, way to socialize, way to widen their circle of acquaintance, that's why psychologist somewhat agree with it. If the person didn't give you a ghastly vibe, why not give it a try to interact. It's kinda weird thing to open doors for strangers,but at the same time, its interesting. Think of this, why its easy for others to share secretes of them, or to have pretty intimate conversation to random person? Cause they say, "No judgement".
Why its okay to ask help to person we dont know if we are in unfamiliar place? Cause they can help us, and same goes in other way. Bottomline, Strangers are not just strangers or a person we dont know, or a person that our parents taught us not to talk to. They can be someone else who can help us in times of unfamiliarity of places or thing. They can be the person who sit next to you in the bus who ask for a little help for direction and end up having a great conversation.
They can be a lot more we didn't expect to, and you can tell by yourself that your best of friends you have today are once a complete stranger to you yet you end up having a strong bond of friendship. They are the person we completely don't know, we dont know their upbringings or what, but sometimes the can be more helpful to us than the others we know. By simply having a casual conversation with them, we're not noticing that they are giving us a diffirent approach to different aspects in life and unfortunately, this idea overpowers by just word "stranger". Hopefully, maybe now or then, we're very thankfull that we took the opposite approach of "do not talk to strangers"
I was, but I am not. Desperately, I am trying to reach you – my hope. I am in this particular space in my own constructed world where doubts and frustrations recur. Emphasizing how scared I am being here, I never explored this area before. I was always in those places filled with benevolence, hope shining like the light the sun and the moon possess. And I didn’t have any plans to visit a ‘dark’ place, as how I described it then. But, as funny as how my world suddenly flipped, I am now here, completely lost with monsters persuading me to go insane.
How did I end up here? I can’t logically tell you the answer for that, but I guess, I know when. It started when I had to consider what college course do I want to pursue. Well, if you want to ask what ambition had occurred in my mind when I was young – which is usually the case in terms of life when you were like 7-year-old young - it was definitely being a doctor. I’d thought about wearing a medical coat with a stethoscope around my neck, ready to cure people from their illnesses. It was actually stuck in my mind for so long I almost thought that I was sure of it, yet, as a particular song yields, almost was never really enough and still, it is and will never be.
When I realized that such a perspective was slowly draining me, I tried my best to stand tough. I convinced myself that this was just temporary, that I could think of a way out of this. “There’s still plenty of time,” I once convinced myself. However, my environment demonstrated the contrary: I felt like I was completely out of time.
I was there when my classmates were happily talking about that ‘dream course’ they wish to take in their ‘dream university.’ I was there when my family was suggesting the thought of using my ‘suitable’ speaking voice for broadcasting and voice acting purposes. I was there when my teacher was convincing me that Education suited me the best. That ‘Stand tough!’ aura I used to own back then, suddenly transformed into ‘I give up!’ state, slowly destroying my being. And now, I am here in this space where doubts and frustrations are filling my former enthusiastic self. I need help.
I know, at this point, some of you may never consider me ‘fatal’ because, as you’re reading this, you may judge that I still have the ability to transform my thoughts into words that can be read, so that ‘automatically’ falls into the aspect of complete sanity. No, because I will never tell everything to you in the first place if I still have the urge to stand like I used to, relative to my belief that speaking up through writing is the best way to attract help.
When you look at the photo of mine above, you may say that I was okay. That I was successful. That I was never losing myself. Yes, I was. But, think about what happened days after that was taken and the message of this passage you started reading minutes before, do you think I am still the same girl smiling in the photo? I hope I will be or better yet, improve if the world will permit me. But, now I’m sure – I’m not the same.
LIFE ADVICE YOU NEED TO HEAR WHILE YOURE STILL YOUNG
This blog is dedicated to all teens out there struggling in determining what they really want in their life or if you simply want a glow up. And since were still facing a pandemic, I think this is also a season where everyone is re-thinking about their lives. So, I hope these advices might help you.
Tip #1. TAKE RISK - since most of you are still young, I advice you to take your biggest risk. Whether it may be taking the course you want, a skill you want to acquire or just simply taking the risk to throw away your emotional baggage from your childhood. While you're still young, you have very little to lose. You dont have that much commitments and responsibilities. Because the older you get, the more responsibilities and obligations came. So when they are still not piling up, take the risk! As for me, the biggest risk I took when I was still a teenager is to CUT OFF TOXIC FAMILY TIES.
I may sound rude here but, yeah. I decided to throw away my emotional baggage from my traumatic childhood and cut off some of my family ties and it is completely okay! You dont have to be bothered by whatever they will say. Because at your age, you are already investing on your growth as a person. If you really want to grow, THERE IS NO PERFECT TIME FOR YOU TO TAKE RISK BUT NOW. Because in taking risk you are actually giving yourself a reward of getting something amazing or beyond what you expect you can have. As they say, the bigger the risk, the bigger the reward. Keep in mind that the bigger the risk, the bigger possibility of FAILURE. But that is completely OKAY. Because just like what I said earlier, you are still young. You dont have so much to lose so, dont be afraid to take the risk and then fail. But after failing, learn from it and the more courage you have to take risk the greater the learning, reward or happiness. Ito na nga, how to take risk nga ba? And what are the risk that would actually help me to grow? #
2: VOICE LESSON - dont get me wrong, hindi ito vocalization para sa pagkanta. What I mean is, learn to listen to that VOICE INSIDE YOU. Listen to your heart, to your intuition and to your visions because it will be your GUIDE. Because I realize that as you go along your journey of your life and if you really want to be YOURSELF and be successful in achieving your goals, the only GUIDE that you should follow is your OWN VOICE.
It is okay to take and consider other people's advices but at the end of the day,you should never forget to listen to your own voice. Because that voice is what tells you what you truly want. How would you know that if it is your 'own' voice? Your own voice always comes from your HEART. The voice where YOU and GOD'S voice are one. Because I firmly believe that God knows your heart and that is where he reside. I like journaling because whenever I journal my thought every night and every morning, I feel a dual voice inside my head. Like, it contradicts what the other voice is telling. For example: If we have dreams or goals that puts us so much weight and pressure to the point that it makes you exhausted, STOP. Because it might be a dream or goal of someone else. I believe that your own dreams and goals may be frustrating most of the time, but that frustration has fueling feeling that will always tell you that 'This is the hard way to better so keep going'. Frustration in your own dreams will not make you feel exhausted because achieving a dream itself is a fulfilling feeling.
#3. TAKE ACTION - if you really want something to happen, take action. Dont just sit there and wait things to come your way. Make action or decisions that will take you to where you want to go in your life. Just like what I said in one of my novels that I am writing in wattpad, "There is no such thing as destiny or fate. Because YOU make your OWN life choices." For example, I cannot expect to be a published author if I dont write any novels right? The bottomline here is, if you are not moving forward you are actually moving backward. And it is a sad thing. Life is full of situations where you will be put in the line whether you take courage or just stay where you are. Because GROWING needs consistency in moving forward. So if you dont have to enough courage to take action, your life will always stay the same or worse you will continuously shrink down.
#4. EXPAND YOUR HORIZONS - this means stretching your comfort zone. I watched an anime entitled "Black Clover" there is a captain there where he always tell his subordinates to surpass their limits right, here right now. Going out of our comfort zones are surely scary and uncomfortable. But you have to accept the fact that you cannot stay on the coast forever. You have to change, because the only thing that is constant in this world is change right? Go out of your comfort zones because LIMITS are just in the MIND. There are disabled people who are successful in their own careers. Because the lesson here is, if you hold back there will be no growth. Because GROWTH blooms in DISCOMFORT.
Last, #5. INVEST IN YOURSELF - especially now that you are still young, you should focus on investing on yourself more. Time is your bestfriend at this point of your life. You have so much time to discover things about yourself. I never regret buying and reading books that I never knew will help me later on in dealing life's challenges. You can use that time to read books, gain wisdom, or pick a new skill, improve your talent and learn from your experiences. Keep learning outside your home or your school. Because the real battlefield is OUTSIDE. What you learn in school will only help you in your career but your wisdom and experiences will help you in life or as a person. People who doesnt embrace growth will never succeed in their life. (This is a reflection blog from my 21st birthday last week. I hope you can feature this on your page and I hope it can help others as well. )
Mahalaga ang sinasabi. Maraming epekto ang bawat salitang lumalabas sa ating bibig. Magandang kasama ang masarap kausap, lalo na ang mga nagpapatibay sa iyo. Marami ang iba-iba ang pananaw at nalalaman, at tiyak na mayroon kang gustong kausap. Anong klase? Ikaw? Anong klase ka kaya? Suriin ang mga sumusunod, tingnan kung ano ka dito, at kung sinu-sino naman ang gusto mo.
1. Silent Agent
Sila ang mga taong bihirang magsalita, o baka hindi mo pa alam ang mga totoong boses nila—misteryoso. Gusto rin naman nila ng kausap, kaso katiting nga lang ang lalabas sa bibig nila. Kung sa loob ng klase at walang guro, ang mga ganitong estudyante ay mga nakatunganga lang, nakapalumbaba, at sa buong oras na iyon, nakabibinging katahimikan ang mararansan mo sa pagtabi sa kanila. Sadyang walang topic na mapag-uusapan. Hindi iyon isang boredom para sa kanila. Agent nga sa katahimikan.
Kapag tinanong mo sila, masasagot nila iyon agad—sa kaunting salita pero mapuwersa. Meaningful na ang isang sentence ng paliwanag niya.
Ang mga puzzler ay mahirap kausapin. Magulo silang kausap. Kailangan mo pang ayus-ayusin ang mga sinabi nila para mabuo ang ideya. Marahil, dala ng kaba, takot, o hiya, kayahindi masabi ang point.
4. Paranganto Kabaligtaran ng Lottle.
Ang daming paliwanag. Ang daming sinabi. Kapiraso lang naman ang ibig sabihin. Puro ‘Parang Ganito’ o kaya naman ‘Ganito kasi 'yon.’ Naintindihan na namin bago pa matapos ang 30-minutong ‘kuwento’ niya.
Ito ang mga kausap na anuman ang sabihin, nasusunod. Naipapahayag nila nang maganda, mapuwersa, nakakaabot ng damdamin at nakakakumbinsing paraan ang mga nais sabihin. Madalas, mga tagapayo sila. Puwedeng-puwede na nga silang i-hire pang-advertiser sa mall.
May pagkakatulad siya sa Paranganto. Sila ang pinakamadadaldal. Hindi sila nauubusan ng sasabihin. Oras-oras may dala siyang balita.
7. Liguy-ligoy Expert
Sagana sa topic, kaso hindi pa tapos sa isang topic, may bago na naman. Hindi tugma ang lahat ng example niya. Anong kinalaman niyon? Bakit napunta do'n?—tanong mo na lang.
Sagana naman sa kaalaman ng ibang tao. Puwede ring tawaging ‘The Walking Slambook.’ Delikado sila, matatalim ang mga dila nila. Makikita mo sila sa kanto at taltalan nang taltalan. Sila ang mga awtor sa kuwento ng buhay ng ibang tao. Kapangyarihan niyang magpakalat ng tsismis. Ito bang sumulat? Anong klaseng kausap?
Dalawang uri ang Transformative:
Ang (1) Transformative Mooder ay mga kausap na paiba-iba ang mood. Minsan madaldal, minsan tahimik, minsan ewan. Isa lang naman talaga ang klase nila, paiba-iba nga lang ng mood; at ang (2) Transformative Multiple na mayroong higit sa isa ang klase ng kausap. Halo, kumbaga.
What it feels like to be a PROMDI girl?
Most of my age, we want to explore, we want to go to the city and left what’s life in the province. We are eagered to test our self, to prove our self that we can, that we can conquer the world. We think that if we left our lives in the province we can only achieve our goals in the city.
As I observed, most Filipinos go to city because they mostly say that “in city, we have a chance to change our life”. That’s what they want to picture in their minds minds, but that’s not applicable in all of us. As a fresh graduate, I admit that I want to explore the world as much as others want. I want to have a stable job, give back to my parents and go beyond my limits. That’s my picturesque idea of what I want to my life but suddenly this pandemic explode and all of our plans have been freeze out. It made us feel numb of what we can do, a smaller room for all of us, that we need to be in this small room for a significant amount of time.
That’s what pandemic brings us, a massive explosion that all of us don’t expect that it would come. Being born from the province is the greatest blessing god has given to me. Fresh air, free food, relaxing scene and the sound of palm leaves when the air from the sea hits it. I admit that I was once imagine that I am working in this place, I imagine on how long will I be able to stay here, with those big pretty lights in the evening and full of high buildings in which I can’t see the top, where you can inhale the air just like what the car emits, I suddenly stop thinking right at that moment and I said I can’t stay here for long term, all of food have a price, where you can usually get that in the province for free (just talk first to the owner if it’s not yours).
In province, we don’t usually use huge amount of money just to buy foods for consumption, for Php 100.00 we have a meal for lunch and dinner, sometimes vendors adds additional fruits or vegetables when you buy to them often. The scenic places are priceless, you can go there any time you want to relax with no fee or maybe a small amount of fee and then you can enjoy the place. After that realization I came to the conclusion that, why do I need to go to another places if I can achieve my goals here in my own province?
As I started high school, I was that girl who likes to do her very bests. In almost every aspect of her life, she did her finest effort even though she wasn’t skilled in one. Until she reached the point of realization that she matters not because she was able to perform almost everything, but because she knew her limitations. She understood that every human person has a unique gift for a unique purpose. She accomplished the art of letting go. Letting go of things not meant for her. That’s when she began to take no expectations, go with the flow, and whatever happens, happens.
Whatever life offers her, bad or good, each day, each week, each month, and each year she is willing and ready to tackle. Tackle them with a good heart and ambition. And I think that’s what makes a person go beyond their limits. It is not all about the experiences of life that will teach you, but getting ahead of what life will give you is just something beyond one’s limitation. To me, failing is a part of life. One wouldn’t be who he is right now without failing. No moment in life that you won’t face one. As a student, of course, it is very crucial to fail in studies, but the actual truth is, nobody likes to fail because education is a lifetime gift a student can offer to their parents.
It’s very scary to fail in school because as of now, it is where a teenager’s life revolves. A student would have no idea how to get back up. But I also come to realize that this is not where the real-life fails. Low scores in science exams? Failed to recite? Well, it really leaves a scar as a student, but all these are nothing compared to what real-life brings you. I may not experience them, maybe I’m just ahead of myself, really. Failure is not final; it is simply the opportunity to begin again.
Every new day is a challenge and it is up to us if we want to succeed or fail this day. Who knows maybe every day is actually a failure and we just have to correct it and succeed?
I've been investing in arts, photography, and writing. I've also got back to reading the other day and I finished reading this amazing book entitled 300 Things I Hope by Iain S. Thomas. It is all about the things the author hopes his readers to do in all aspects of life. So, I decided to make a version of it with all of the things I'm hoping for.
I hope I get to see my friends be successful in life. I hope to make a big mural someday. I hope to be a well-known artist like the artists I look up to. I hope to marry the person I am in love with today. I hope to be a little kinder to myself. I hope to see happiness even in the smallest things. I hope to travel the world. I hope to be a good mother and a wife to my future family. I hope to have my artworks displayed in a gallery or an exhibit. I hope to learn more about creative writing. I hope I won't learn how to get tired and give up my passion. I hope I won't get too hard on myself whenever I don't get the results I've been wanting to see in my works. I hope to love myself more even on the days I hate it the most. I hope to lead and empower women; to be their voice and for them to believe in themselves that they can be the woman they look up to. And when I've reached my limit of these things, I hope I won't get tired of reminding myself that my emotions don't make me weak, hence, makes me stronger. These are some of the things I always hope for. What about you? What are you hoping for?
I started fixing myself this quarantine. I mean, I started trying makeup products. As a teen, I'm on my phone almost every hour of the day, scroll on my social media accounts, especially Instagram, and also Pinterest where you get to see nice and pleasing photography by bunch of amazing and beautiful people from different parts of the world. So I started taking my own as well. I did not know that taking your own photo and try to get an Instagramable one is sooooooooo hard, it's exhausting. I do not have alot of space in my room, and I would definitely not do it outside our house because of Corona Virus, and I don't want to be seen by our neighbors HAHA so I have no choice but to make tiis inside my room.
Out of atleast 25 shots, only 2 are a nice picture. While I'm all sweaty and tired, I am proud of what I could do beyond my comfort zone. And this definitely built my self confidence, (and I secret love the compliments I received from both people I know and don't know) It's not my first time visiting in here, Candy! But I'm new to writing my thoughts and experiences, so bare with me HAHA.
Until next time!
First. Pixie dust and paper cuts – these are the first things Wendy knew about Peter Pan. Aurora first met Prince Philip when she was sixteen. Learning how to ride a bike was also a first while I was growing up, but you are probably the first of too many. The first collection of dust and stars; maybe Luna will try to ask, who was your first? I might answer and tell her that it was you.
The first of too many stars in the sky. You are the first of too many fallen leaves during fall – and you will be the most anticipated snowflake as winter comes. A dark path that you can’t see without any light, hence, you were once the moon and there are the stars that shine so bright at night. Are we too early? Or we just really want to be ahead of time? Even in a glimpse, I would like to see the two of us connect as if we can reach the sky. There are other parts of the heavens you have never saw and other oceans you haven’t laid your feet onto – but the constellations will always wait for you. Close your eyes, love, close your eyes. Start counting backward: 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. Count backward until you see the twinkling lights that will guide you to the right path. To the right satellite; to the right person. A first.
There are many firsts – first love, first heartbreak, first sport you played, the first thing you do in the morning, the first thing you remember about the person in front of you. There are a lot. It’s actually up to us how we will consider something as a first. So, Primo, you are already a first of too many.