An Open Letter to Yourself When You Can't Get Up in the Morning Because Your Heart is Breaking
Before you can even try to get up in the morning, it just hits you—he is gone, and this time, it's for good. You can actually feel yourself falling apart and it's a kind of pain like no other. You beg, you weep, and before you know it, you're already on your knees wondering what you could have done to stop it. You're trying to relive the moments you'd give anything to feel twice.
If there is one thing you don't tell a person who's hurting, it's what they can and can't feel. I'm not going to add to the long list of you-deserve-betters and it-will-get-betters you are going to hear from your friends and family because right now, at this very moment, it doesn't feel like it's going to get better any time soon. I'm not going to try to tell you how and when you should move on because I know you're going to, in time. For now, you have every right to cry, to feel hurt, and to feel the way you're feeling. Don't listen to people trying to tell you to simply just "get over it," as if it was really that easy. When you really love someone that much, there's no such thing as a quick fix. There is no one-step how-to on how to not love someone.
Maybe you still believe in a second, third, or fourth chance but you just can't admit to yourself that those chances walked out the door when he chose to. But you have to. You have to come to terms with the fact he's not coming back because the sooner you do that, the sooner you can get on with this grand life you've always had—the one you will always have, with or without him. I know you're hurting, and that's okay but don't let it hurt you forever.
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