Lovescopes (April 2016)
March 21 to April 19
It's time for brutal, honest truth-telling this month—easily not the most pleasant thing to deal with, but everyone needs a dose of complete candor sometimes. If you're currently single and want to change your status stat, ask yourself why the single life is making you super uncomfortable. Maybe this alone time is necessary to straighten certain issues out. If you’re in a relationship, now's the time to iron out any problems you and your guy may be having.
April 20 to May 20
Even though your relationship pretty much just involves you and your partner, it can seem like it takes a village to make everything work perfectly! It would be great if your parents approve of your potential or current boyfriend, if your friends are supportive, and if even your dog gives you two a thumbs (or paws!) up. This month, move out of just the two of you and see how your relationship can broaden and expand to include all the other aspects of your life so that everything works in harmony.
May 21 to June 20
Geminis are known for their dual personalities and how they switch from one mood to the next in an instant. This month, you may feel like you're splitting not just into two personalities, but five! There's a lot of confusion in your mind about what you should or shouldn't do in your relationship, and one moment you're hot and the other you're stone cold. Take time to ask yourself what's going on in your head, there's a chance that your actions aren't in line with what your heart says. Figure it out so you can move forward.
June 21 to July 22
You're getting swept away by the summer spirit and it seems like you're finally waking up from a pretty long slump. Maybe you're finally done with all the drama and want to get things going in your love life! Milk your mood for all its worth and use this super fun time to explore your options. If you're in a semi-serious to serious relationship, check out new things you can explore with your guy (surfing? running?). If you're a single girl, it's time to open your eyes and heart to the possibility of meeting new guys in unexpected places.
July 23 to August 22
90% of the time, you're the star of the show, especially in your love life. In relationships, you usually get your way and as a single girl, you like to dominate the scene and steal the attention of all the guys. This summer, try to rein yourself in (even just a little bit!). Sure, it can be a struggle to hold all your awesomeness in, but it may surprise you how staying slightly subtle can actually be rewarding for your love life in the long run. Perhaps you’ll meet a similarly quiet guy who can be just what you need.
August 23 to September 22
Although you love to be in control of everything going on, love can deal you a massive 180° blow and turn your world upside down. If you've made plans to stay away from relationships this summer and concentrate fully on your blooming theater career, you might get thrown off your axis and meet a sweetheart during rehearsals. If you feel you're in a no-fail relationship, some issues may rise to the surface between you and your partner. Whatever test gets thrown your way, know that you've got this and you can handle even the most earth-shaking changes.
September 23 to October 22
You're normally in total control of your feelings and manage yourself pretty well, keeping things practical even in the most emotional, dramatic parts of your love life. This month, prepare to move out of your intellect and embrace whatever stirs your heart. Falling in love isn't always a sensible experience, but moving away from your levelheadedness can help you get to know yourself in an exciting, thrilling, new way. Embrace it!
October 23 to November 21
Drama, drama, drama. You have a tendency to keep a lot of your emotions hidden until they grow into a dramatic pool of massive proportions. This month, everything love-related will seem to blow up, and your propensity to run with drama will heighten things even more. Don't let a petty fight between you and your guy be more than what it actually is—a small argument. Sure, life is exciting with a bit of exaggeration, but you've got to exercise keeping your feet on the ground, dearest.
November 22 to December 21
For the most part, you like to show a happy face to the world. Sometimes though, a really good cry is exactly what you need. If you've been burying any tears from an old relationship or some angst from unrequited love, by all means, cry it all out! You're in need of a really good release and once you're done mourning the baggage you carry, the brave face you present to everyone will be absolutely authentic and sincere. Now grab a box of tissues, enlist your BFF's shoulder for an hour or so, and let it all out.
December 22 to January 19
We give you total permission to let loose this summer and get out of your all-business-all-the-time mode to make time for love. You've got a great opportunity this month to slip into an epic romance! If you've been wary about diving deep, you’ll find that now's the best time to explore a potential relationship with that guy who's been waiting around in the sidelines forever. Throw caution to the wind—even just for a month! At the very least, you'll end the summer with a wonderful love story.
January 20 to February 18
Hey, Social Butterfly—this summer's your chance to take things easy and let the guys come to you. People are attracted to your easygoing nature and it's going to work in your favor all through this month. If you're in a relationship, you can expect your partner to give into your whims (beach weekend? yes! road trip? yes! anything you want? yes!). If single, you'll be a regular Scarlett O'Hara with a line of beaus just waiting around for you. Have some fun and take care you don't take advantage of others' open hearts!
February 19 to March 20
Love is an emotional thing that carries huge responsibilities we tend to forget about when we get carried away with all our dreamy ideals! Whether you're in a relationship or want to be in one, it's time to buckle down and get serious. If you've been slacking as a girlfriend, is there any way you can put it more effort to even things out between you and your guy? If you're single and are looking for love, have you been putting yourself out there enough? It's time to reassess your game and amp it up this month.
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these sheets that exactly remind me of how I gushed in between my pillow and space you filled in the longing of my burned sorrow put smile to my sober face just like how a three year old receive her lollipop
i searched you everywhere and here you are laying down beside me in my imagination the walls that our screens built a boundary and an obvious message that says i can never have you because you wear clerical shirt and obviously you loved someone else before me
oh god, do I really want this forbidden love? that only exist in my imagination? that only exist through my words? would you, meine liebling, notice me and my art one second? because I am dying to say I love you.
A Simple Learner Who's a Great Pretender
Maybe I'm just a learner, not a weirdo. A learner that knows how to listen and pretend. A simple learner who's a great pretender. Pretending to be slightly dumb enough not to be judged and criticized by those who do not appreciate my existence. We surround ourselves with people who's levels are either beyond or below our intellectual behavior, because as for reality, people may use you either for their success or your downfall. Since then, people tend to judge someone who has an intellect with things they shouldn't be. Making them a criticizer, and most of all, calling them weird.
Honestly, I'm one of this "weirdo" who actually loves to learn things, and for the record, I'm bullied and stressed out for making myself not to learn more and go with the flow to dumbness I had. Have you ever feel being assigned to some task where you know every process to make it easier and faster to finish but turns out to hesitate to voice out because some of your mates put themselves in charge. There are times where I know what to do, what to say, or how to react, but kept myself silent and pretend not to know anything that may help us. Maybe it's a good thing to just go with their ideas and learn from their perspectives, but sometimes you can't control it and says something, and once again called to be a weirdo and let you finish the work by yourself.
It's annoying that you only know one process yet they gave you the whole work and let you finish it by yourself because they insist that "MAGALING KA DIBA?". It's not your fault being an intellectual person, knowing such things that may help you to pursue your dreams, and have the basic knowledge about something. You don't need to know everything, just the basics. And as for those people who do not appreciate your existence, let them be and continue what's the best for you. In some cases, you'll be annoyed by this but most of the time you'll be thankful for it. Not for now but maybe later. Just be yourself either a weirdo, a great pretender, or a simple learner, and always remember to lower your voice and behavior because no one loves that.
Just be a great pretender not to hear any runts and be a good learner that appreciates everything. It's out of nowhere thoughts of mine, but simply I leave you this my favorite life quotation; "Don't introduce yourself, Let your success introduce you"
Dear me in six years, I wonder how life will treat you when you’re already 26 years old. Will you be financially stable? Will you be working in an advertising agency while pursuing everything about the arts? Will you be doing freelancing and living in a condo by then? I don’t know since things are very uncertain. I hope by the time you graduate from college and face the real meaning of the world, you’ll know what the real purpose of doing and living in the art will be.
I know it’s been so tough ever since you turned 20 but that’s how life works, I guess. There will be a lot of hopes and trials, breakdowns, and breakthroughs but I have high hopes of you becoming the better version of yourself. You always do, though. You were never a quitter. Making decisions is getting harder and harder as you grow but I hope it doesn’t make you stop doing what you really love to do. You will face different people with different perspectives. You will feel like a stranger once again, it’s like you were back in your freshmen year. It’s going to be tougher than you’ve expected but you can do it. I believe you can.
Most of the time, people's perception of us as a strong person makes us feel that we are not entitled to be vulnerable because they might be disappointed for seeing our weak spots. And so when we are hurting, we are often scared of extreme emotions and so bury our feelings. We deny them, trying to avoid the pain we feel.
But by doing that, we are just allowing it to come back to us and haunt us. And when it comes back, it might be stronger and it will be harder for us to get over it than when we faced them first. I realized it just now that facing those emotions will scare them until they're gone. The saying 'Let it hurt until it hurts no more' goes true. Admitting your pain to yourself doesn't make you weak. It only proves that you are strong enough to acknowledge such extreme emotions without avoiding them. We are humans and it's okay if we hurt sometimes.
Before, sliding over the rainbows
Now, our hearts are bruised
Days once full of love and laughter
Became dawns of forfeited ever after
Smiles that bring ticklish sensations
Turned to cold question and answer
Figuring who would be the next instructor
The queen’s awake
Grappling to the happiness that the sorrow and sadness take
Going back to all the promises he couldn’t make
Poetry #2: YOUR VOICE
When you talk, your voice brightens my days. You provide me comfort in all the little things that you do. Your deep and mellow voice sends a tingling feeling inside me that makes me want to keep you in my life. I love talking to you every time, every day, every night and every minute if I could. You're someone just simply amazing.