Boyfriends vs Boys Who Are Friends
I couldn't have asked for a better setting for what I was about to tell Dominique: at the beach, under a canopy of stars. I sat next to her as she contemplated the lights from the distant islands. It was awkward; but usually these cute fumbling declarations of affection we see in the movies have happy endings. Just goes to show what these screenwriters really know.
She just stared at me, then went back to contemplating the distant lights, her delicate brow furrowed and he lips pursed. After what seemed like an eternity, she turned to me and said, "How could you?", stood up and run into the house.
Weeks passed before we, as Dominique called it, "start over" and began talking again. She felt betrayed that I misconstrued her attention as something more than friendship. Looking at it from her perspective, I sincerely felt bad. It's been four years since The Incident happened. We see each other advice on our current romances. The Incident has actually strengthened our friendship.
I could have lost my good friend Dominique had I insisted on pursuing her. It could've turned ugly; I could've accused her of leading me on. But come to think of it, she didn't treat me in any special way. She was just naturally friendly with people and affectionate with all her friends, me included. Hindsight, after all, has perfect vision.
But I'm not alone. Many female friends have told of amusing stories of clueless boys who follow them around, figuratively running full-tilt, eyes-closed into a brick wall. From their stories, these boys sound like the densest of the male species to ever walk the earth. "How," girls ask me, "can they be so assuming?"
But for guys, that's what it's all about. The game. Does she or doesn't she like me? We read your little actions and gestures and respond to the signals you may (or may not) be giving off. If you don' protest when we "accidentally" place a hand on your nape, most of us will take it as an open invitation for m ore "accidents" to happen. Some of your common sweet gestures we take as "you-may-proceed" signs: (1) That lilt in your voice when you say "Good night" on the phone; (2) That casual peck on his cheek when he picks you up at your house; (3) When you casually hold his hand while malling.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not accusing girls of being the bad guy when a boy feels led on. Sometimes we do look for the minutest hint of mutual interest from you, like "Hey! She flicked her hair in my direction! It's a sign!"
Want to keep your friendship with guy friends strictly non-romantic? These tips may help you straighten out a potentially messy situation:
Drool for Your Idol
We have it when you gush about Zac Efron or swoon over Robert Pattinson. That's how Cindy successfully kept a wannabe suitor in the friend zone. When Bob began getting all sweet on her (with very little prompting from Cindy), she went on and on about her crush—Chris Carraba of Dashboard Confessional—every time he was around. She raved about his eyes, his voice, and how she'd like a boyfriend like him. Bob eventually backed off. He realized he just couldn't compete with a rock star.
Stop Being "One of the Guys"
It's a bonus for us guys to find a girl we can just hang with. Larry, who was into hiking, photography, and rock climbing, hit it off with Annette because she was game for anything. She joined Larry and his group, whether it was scaling a 40-foot wall or shooting seascapes in Anawangin. But while Annette was enjoying what she loved doing with new friends. Larry was getting a different vibe. Here was this amazing girl who share his hobbies and in whom he saw a potential girlfriend. Annette's solution to keeping it platonic? She stopped going out with Larry alone and started hanging out with the others more. Larry got the hint without resenting her, and they still hang out once in a while.
Spell It Out
If we guys are out trolling for a girl and she doesn't bite, we'll go and search for other fish in the sea. So if you're serious about staying friends, be direct and say so. He'll listen. Don't just hope he'll get the message. I promise you he won't for sure, we're supposed to be hunter-gatherers and good at figuring out maps but some mind games girls play aren't exactly our cup tea. So don't keep quiet—say something. We aren't telepathic. If you say you'll think about it, you'd better because Romeo will be waiting for an answer. Romeo will be waiting for an answer. Never say "I don't know." Even that much-abused "friends na lang tayo" will work. But until you haven't said no, nope, nyet, nada, zip, zero, or you-don't-have-a-snowball's-chance-in-hell in plain language, he'll hound you to the ends of the earth.
Don't worry about losing a bud if you come clean about your just-friends feelings. If he's sincere about staying pals, he'll behave like one. (But don't expect him to jump for joy when you first confront him. Let the dude wallow for awhile). A heart-to-heart talk may do wonders for your friendship—sans all that tension, you can be more yourselves. I wouldn't be able to ask Dominique for advice on romantic matters now had I kept my feelings for her bottled up. It also helped that she was open to staying friends despite my affections.
But if he starts acting like a jerk after you clearly tell him you can never seem him other than as a movie buddy or a rainy-afternoon-phone-pal, then walk away. You're better off without him. Guys will back off as soon as you tell them to—unless of course he's an obsessive stalker-psycho-freak. But then that's another story.
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"Today, I Won"
I always caught feelings for someone, and hoped so much that one day there could a thing between the two of us. I'm usually the one that makes the effort to buy and/or make cute gifts, chats them every other day, and stays up all night with him.
When I was 16, my childhood crush suddenly came back into my life. We'd constantly send updates to each other, recommend favorite songs and talk even the most random things. He'd even text me as early as 6 to just greet me good morning almost everyday. I hoped so much that when I confessed, he suddenly stopped talking to me.
For short, he ghosted me. Those 6 months I spent talking to him, allotting my time for him, and staying up until 3 am for him - all gone in a simple confession. Although I had a few crushes before him, he's the only one that got me in real pain. It was the kind of pain that I never thought I'd experience. It was the kind of pain that I couldn't believe.
After 7 years (it happened back in 2017), I thought he came back into my life to stay, but I guess he's just one of the guys who distanced. I felt a complete loser that time. But during this quarantine, everything was different. I caught feelings for someone else, but he treated me with the best kindness yet.
It happened at 2 am, May 30, 2020, when I impulsively confessed my feelings through messaging him. After saying my feelings, he responded with genuine and kind words. We both even complimented each other. Although the feelings didn't reciprocate, I still found a connection that can't be replaced with any guy.
To my 16 year old self, here I am, 18 and happy. You may have felt that time was the biggest regret and loss, but I'm here to tell you, we won. Today, I won.
Why our high school barkada is the best?
Remembering our high school years entails quite a lot reminiscing of the things we all been through when we were younger. You’ve experience a lot of new things during those 4 wonderful years and did most of them with the few people you consider your barkada. And through a series of all the lunch breaks you had together, the walks you took on the way home, and taking the same classes, you never thought you’d survive, you have made your life’s greatest friends.
Here are some of the reasons why your high school barkada is the best:
1. You figured out early teenage life together. The transition one have undergone from being a kid to a teenager wasn’t easy. For a moment you are not sure whether you should have played with your friends during recess or you should have just sat down and ate your food because you were too old for games. But whatever it is you chose to do, having friends who were as clueless as you make everything feel easier because you know, deep down, you’d figure things out eventually. You just need good company.
2. They were with you during your “jeje“ days. I bet you have pictures taken with Camera360 and Retrica. You also have pictures edited using Pizap with embarrassing captions and you somehow kept some of them so you could have something to post online during their birthdays.
3. They know all your exes. They will never EVER forget the name of an ex-boyfriend, an ex-fling, an ex-crush, and an almost you had. They will remind you of your every questionable love decision but you’ll just laugh anyway while saying “Past is past”.
4. They never judge you. They have welcomed you to their lives when you thought jelly shoes and checkered polos were the bomb! They were quick to have told your teachers that you were not feeling well so you could go home when you really just needed to poop. You tell them every embarrassing story you have and were fine with it.
5. You can always count on them. From the moment you first fell in love and the moment you first had your heart broken, they were with you. They were with you the moment you lost a parent and at moments when you thought you had nothing. Through every break-up and breakthrough, they were there to be your support system.
6. They are your family. Your high school friend’s family is your own family’s extension. Their parents are like your own. Don’t you feel a little kilig whenever your friend’s parents call you “anak”? And then eventually calling them mama and papa became so natural? I felt that, all the time.
7. They will always be your home. They are your place of refuge and security, the place who offers you their hands when you feel lost and the place you run to when you need saving. No matter how much time and distance separate you, they will be the one’s that you always long for and they are the one’s that you will always return to.
You're gonna bend and break and then at some point in your life, you feel like you don't want to fall in love again.
Not because you're no longer capable of loving but because you're so afraid to get hurt again that you don't want to take a risk anymore. And you're gonna wake up one day and realize that you're not the same person as you were yesterday. The heart aches, heartbreaks, frustration, you'll see, those will transform your whole being into something better.
Honey, move forward. Let go off all the things that are not meant for you. Let go of all the people who hurt you and take you for granted. Don't be stuck feeling miserable.
And don't turn that love into hate when you resent someone for hurting you or for breaking your heart. Just wish them well and let them go. Welcome the possibility of a beautiful love that will come your way. You're worthy of love that you keep on giving to other people. Keep that in mind.
I wish you well and all the happiness. You deserve it.
Here we are — with rough hands entwined, damned hearts at peace, broken souls resting with ease —savoring each passing moment before we part ways...hoping things will turn out to be okay. Here we are — standing still, keeping our earnest desire and ardent passion for each other at bay — hoping the Universe will finally grant us of the day that we no longer have to pretend... that things will no longer have to end.
Here we are — with crooked smiles, lingering touch that will last for a while -- gathering all the remaining courage to set each other free. Wishing for the day that our hearts will no longer have to worry. Here we are letting each other go. Even though we both know that the future is uncertain. Even though we're unsure if our paths will cross once again.