I Wish That I Could Wake Up with Amnesia

"Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie? If what we had was real, how could you be fine? 'Cause I'm not fine at all. ” —"Amnesia," 5SOS

I can still remember the first day we met. It was a gloomy Wednesday afternoon. We bumped into each other and it all started there. This might sound funny, but believe me, that's the time I finally believed in "love at first sight." I will never forget how beautiful your eyes were looking at me. I will never forget how breathtaking your voice sounded when you said sorry. I will never forget how soft your hand was when you suddenly held mine.

We all dream that someday true love will come our way. That one day, we will have that fairy tale-like moment. When I met you, I thought I finally found that moment I've been waiting for a long time. I remember the butterflies in my stomach every time you look at me. That moment when my heart almost skipped a beat the first time you kissed me. Every moment I spent with you is unforgettable.

I can still remember our very first date. It was simple yet irreplaceable. You were such a gentleman and really fun to be with. You handled me with care like I'm an expensive porcelain doll. I will never forget how you made me laugh with your lame jokes. I will never forget how you bullied and annoyed me. I will never forget all those sweet good morning messages and all those late night conversations. I just can't forget everything. Everything about us. Everything about you. I just can't.

How swiftly things happened between us, that's also how quickly things ended between us. You suddenly disappeared without a good-bye. You left me hanging. It felt like a piece of me is missing and I don't know where to find it. I really don't know why you left. Maybe I'm not good enough for you. Maybe right from the very start, it was all just a game to you.

I can still feel the pain and heartache until now. I don't know how I am going to begin again. All those memories we had are still etched on my mind and heart. How will I forget you? How will I forget about us? I really don't know. I really wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about all these stupid little things.

Written by Alaine Francesca A. Doble.