I once lost you.
I vowed to myself that I will no longer let our friendship slip into the dungeon of oblivion. It hurts to think that I failed to do so, and I was clueless of the mistake I committed. It was before our high school graduation when we had our first misunderstanding. I thought I would leave my alma mater and would also abandon our golden memories together as best friends. I know we never proclaimed anything like that, but the connection does. Labeling each other was not our thing but I hope I became an inch closer to what being a best friend was. It was before college began and we made up, thinking how we ended up ignoring each other. It was that night when I wrote in my diary, "Never close your doors for the people who walked out of your life. They may come back and never ever walk away again."
"Never close your doors for the people who walked out of your life. They may come back and never ever walk away again."
After that, we've never been closer than ever. I let you see the fragile sides of me and I discovered hidden parts of you that people didn't understand. The university differences didn't hinder us from meeting up randomly and catching up with each other about our previous lives. We started to have our separate cliques—ones that we still weren't familiar with.
We're now on our sophomore year and we're back to square one. I thought I knew the nooks and cranny of your being but I thought wrong. From the first time we met, our personality clashed but we made it work. I told one friend that we were very much alike in many ways. I realized that we only connected with hobbies and happy things. It wasn't deeper than that.
I don't want to be the one to say goodbye. I decline to let our bond and laughter be blown away by the wind. I don't want to become strangers with memories. It's such a pain to see your best friend sharing smiles and laughter with someone else. We had our own little world built from comforting silence and portion of dreams. But I am too weak to fight for something as big as this. I just want to let you know that I'm sorry that I failed to be there for you when the biggest storm landed. I'm sorry.
If you happen to read this while scrolling on your newsfeed, I hope I did my best being the best friend I thought I could be. You were the best, best friend I never had.
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