All my life I have experienced different kinds of love. There is that kind where I feel so safe and comfortable, like a familial love. Another one is a love that made me do all that's fun in the world; I got it from my friends. There's also this love when you are just sitting there with a bunch of people and wonder idly "Where has this been hiding all my life?" Then, there is a love that is you.
You. Yes, it is you. I will forever be grateful to have experienced your love. Thank you for that. You have loved me differently. A love that is so strange, I always kept finding my way out. It was all so new to me. I didn't know how to act or what to feel. One thing that's clear was I liked talking to you. I liked talking about my dreams, passion, and goals with you almost as much as when I'm sharing it with my best friend. Now, can it be labeled as love? I figured it will be unfair for you if I called it love, prematurely. So I didn't. I never did.
So to the one who I thought was never worthy, I'm sorry. If in any way I led you on, I know somehow I did, I'm sorry. Each time you talk to me, I always think that you're not worthy of my time when it should be the other way around. I am the one who is not worth your time. You saved me even when I didn't need to be saved. You loved me, made me feel more whole when I thought I didn't need anything anymore. All I did was hurt you.
I might never find a person as amazing as you are in this lifetime. Still, I will let you go. This time because I know you're the most worthy person in this world to be loved truly. I can't give you that as of the moment. And I don't want to hold on to you, because who knows? I might be keeping you away from the girl who rightfully deserves you.
From that girl who was never really worthy
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