From Our Readers: To the One Who Gave Me Faith in Life Again
I have always asked myself if someone is really out there to be my soul mate. I have prayed to God countless of times for Him to make me known to her. I have envied every couple that I see and sometimes it turns to me being bitter with their happy and kilig moments. I have enjoyed the company of solitude.
Yes, I am a lone wolf. I am a misanthrope. Yes, I am alone.
This was me before I met you. I've always told myself that I'm not the "relationship" type of guy. I was this guy who was shy and timid with no motivation to do anything. I was this zombie who craved for a brain and had forgotten that heart was also important for our survival. I was the guy who became rigid with rules, trying to stick to my goals that I sacrificed having good company with others. I always wanted to be in my room, curled up with my pillow, thinking about how I view my life with misery. I hated the couples that I'd see maybe because I wanted to experience it, too. The feeling of loving someone and most especially the feeling of being loved by someone. This is living but with no will.
Then you came. You gave my world a 360-degree turn-around. I broke those stupid rules and let go of those inhibitions deep within my soul. I learned a lot about myself. I learned things that I didn't know I was capable of doing. I had the courage; I had the guts to even ask you out. I'd go to school very early to be with you and to help you study even if I had already studied at home. I'm only me when I'm with you. I was able to share umbrellas with you, I was able to open a door for you, and I was able to do things that you asked me to. I didn't know how to express I care until you came. I learned how to deal with mood swings of girls.
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You knew all my embarrassing moments. You knew how to shut me up. You know how to make me kilig. You knew how to make me laugh. You knew my tendencies to have mood swings. You knew most of my secrets, good or bad that my parents don't even know. You told me stories about your life that inspire me.
You were the first girl that made my tears fall. You taught me how to act like a real man in different situations. You made me happy. You made me jealous. You made me sad. You helped me mature even in the slightest of ways.
It is not every day that I get to meet an amazing girl like you. You are one in a million. You changed a man's life. You made my life so crazy but in the most beautiful way. And for the first time in my life, I didn't want to be alone. I just wanted to be beside you as we look up at the stars. It seems that I started breathing oxygen once again. You helped me yearn again for my tomorrow.
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We may not end up being together, I am still glad that I met you.
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