It's been a while since we last spoke, and a lot longer since we last saw each other. A lot has changed from the time when we were fighting in the hallways, and I was pushing you away hoping and praying deep inside that you'll just grab on to me and never let go because that was our promise remember? To hug a little tighter whenever things got hard. But you didn't that time. You walked away. You, who I thought would never leave, left me that day. Somehow deep inside I knew that this day would come and you would finally give up on me, on us. Yes, a lot has changed since then.
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I really don't know when or how but somewhere in the midst of everything, you fell out. You fell out of love with me and I knew it. I knew it three months before you said goodbye. I knew it even before I begged you to stay. I knew it then when I saw the light beginning to dim in your eyes, when the fireworks between us slowly turned into a match that's burning out. I knew it so much more when our I love yous became more of a routine than heartfelt. I knew, I just knew you didn't love me anymore.
But a lot has changed since then. The hair I cut short is now growing longer. The smiles I have are now getting brighter. And my heart? My heart is still broken and bruised, but it is getting better. It is getting better everyday because you know what? I now understand. You and I were doomed to be torn apart from the very beginning. You were the perfect piece, but I am not the puzzle you were meant to complete. You were the sun, I am the moon, and we're destined to shine brightly without each other.
Nevertheless, you were the best I ever had, and by a long shot, no one could ever compare to the happiness I felt each and every minute when you were mine. For that, i will forever be grateful. I just pray that I made even a tenth of an impact in your life to what you've made in mine.
P.S. I know you'll never read this, but just know, that you'll forever have a place in my heart. You will always be my bestest friend, my favorite hello and my hardest goodbye.
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