We were together. We were. Then suddenly you left me with no reason. And I can't seem to move on because I'm still holding on to the faith that you'll come back soon. I thought what we had was real, but turns out that it wasn't for you.
Years have gone by and you're still the only one I think about. I have met tons of guys and still my heart belongs to you. It hurts so bad seeing you happy with someone else and all I can do is to pretend that I'm happy for you. I know deep down in my heart that I need to let you go. I really need to. But something is really holding me back, and I can't figure it out.
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I heard you denied me in front of your friends and they laughed and judged me. Of course I was hurt and I don't know why you denied me. I still can't forget what happened, so I decided to forget you and all of our memories. But then you said "hi" and everything just fell back into place. My hopes are up again that we can be more than friends. I know it's quite hilarious to think about, but you can't blame me because you are really that important.
Then I suddenly realized that we never really talk. I mean talking is much better than just greeting each other. So I thought maybe this time it would be better if I talk to you, but I got ignored again. It's so hard trying to fix this while you're trying to mess up everything again.
Every night I sigh, thinking about all the possibilities between you and me. Every time I see you, I just want to hug you so tight and never let you go. I keep hoping if I could ask you on how your day was and if we could talk about everything without caring about the world. But of course, I can't do that.
Finally that day came and I thought I have the guts to confront you. I was about to tell you how important you are to me. But when I tried to talk to you, you just said something that really hurt and crushed my heart to pieces. That moment, I knew that I was so dumb all this time. Running around and around like a cat chasing a mouse. After I covered up the bad things that you do, all those realizations hit me. I just wanted to cry out loud how much pain you'd given. I wasted all my love and time. But I can't blame you, because I was the one who is so foolish to love someone like you.
READ: Maybe It's About Time
Loving you didn't made me complete. In fact I just lost a part of myself. Now, I am trying to find out who I really am without you. And I know it's about time to let you go. This might take a lot of time but I know I am ready.
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