From Our Readers: To the Guy I Wrote a Song For
It’s been three years since I wrote that song for you. It sounded so perfect back then but right now, when I listen to the audio file I kept in my "Junior Year" folder, it just seems plain lame to me. The lyrics are so sincere in a very clichéd way. I wonder what made me start writing those words. Maybe I was just so into you at that time. Oh no, that’s not a maybe. I was really into you.
I wrote that song when you just turned sixteen while I was about to turn fifteen. The funny part? I wrote it in Chemistry class. Seriously. It seemed effortless for me to make those words rhyme. And I was able to finish it for only a few minutes. To be honest, it's not a good song. Well, don't expect so much from a fifteen-year-old infatuated girl (because I’m not Taylor Swift).
I know we both have already moved on from those silly years of high school. I know we are now busy with college preparing for the "real world." I know you have your new world now, a world where I don't exist or matter, same as the old one. I knew you three years ago but right now, I don't think I do anymore.
The years made you more distant from me than you were three years ago. They made your sky wider and I was just one of the little stars in it singing a song for you. The years made my light fainter for your eyes to see. And at the same time, they made me forget the words of the song and how it felt writing them. They made me hopeless.
This would be the last time I'd write something for you. That song was the first. I may have already forgotten the words and the feeling I felt while writing them but I won't ever forget you. That song may not be the best one you've heard but know that those words were written from the heart with all sincerity a fifteen-year-old infatuated girl could have.
I may only be the little faint star of your sky but know that you were the moon of mine.
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