From Our Readers: To the Guy I Fell in Love With for the Second Time
I'm the kind of person who believes in "past is past" especially when it comes to love and that's why I never give another chance to someone who already hurt me.
Until you happened...
It's the first time I let someone enter my life again after all the things you've done to me. You hurt me. I already told you that I suffered heartaches from you. You took my heart the moment you left me. You left me because of another girl. I asked myself, "Am I not good enough for you?" Days passed by, I lost myself and it took me a while to find it again. All I know is, I destroyed myself by loving you. Nothing inspires me but my pain, that's how I moved on.
You took my heart the moment you left me.
But that was more than a year ago. We moved on, we started another chapter in our lives separately. Until you came back...
And for the second time, I accepted you. I knew that loving you is like loving a storm, I would never get out unscathed. You became my biggest risk. Who would have thought that after all our differences, we'd end up together. We fight almost everyday, even over the smallest thing. Somewhere between our arguments, I asked myself "Is it really worth it? To be with you?" I paused, sat in one corner, then I remembered your face. My doubts faded away. You rarely smile and I guess that's the reason why people mistakenly identify you as a snobbish. But my perspective's different; I see inner goodness in you. I believe in you. Have I ever told you that one of the best thing that I witnessed is you, sleeping, then you started snoring and I couldn't ask for more because you are more than enough. Your flaws aren't flaws because I adore them all.
I always question myself, "Why do I love you?" You annoyed me, you made me scream because I hate you. I told myself a million times that I had enough; I'm going to leave you but still, here I am, fighting. Holding on to work these things right because I still want to spend every irritating moment with you. I just don't want to waste our second chance anymore. I can't afford to lose you again. I'm sorry I never say I love you so instead I say good night, because love means falling and I'm afraid of heights. I know you don't like me being so clingy, so I just had to wrote down all these feelings for you...
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To the Person Who Does Not Know Any 1D Song
By: CJ Reyno
Never in my wildest dream I imagined to meet someone who does not know a single One Direction song or who does not even know, Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson, Liam Payne, Niall Horan, and err… Zayn Malik. How did you spend your teenagehood without listening to their songs? The disrespect to my #StyPayHorLikSon. My initial reaction, Vas Happenin’?
Since I was 12 years old, that was way back on 2012, One Direction songs have been my official life soundtrip, my go-to songs whenever I feel happy, sad, mad, excited, and etch. I can still remember how people went crazy just to attend their concert here in the Philippines. I must admit, I was one of those. LOL. The group was also dubbed as, “The Biggest Boyband in the World”. They were an era. You really left me in awe when you told me that you do not know a single One Direction song. Their songs are gold. But I was a little hopeful when a new messaged popped up on our conversation, “Hey I know one, Make You Beautiful”.
You do not know how my world collapsed after reading your message. I would like to say that I appreciate the effort, thanks, but they do not have a song entitled, Make You Beautiful, because it is, What Makes You Beautiful. I tried to explain but you said that they are just the same. (Tip: Never fight with a Directioner when it comes to this because we will not let our guards down). No! They are not the same. How can you make this big mistake? LOL. What Makes You Beautiful is One Direction’s debut song. Almost everyone knows this, “you’re insecure, don’t know what for,” ring a bell? The music video of this surpassed 1 billion views on Youtube. On my 21 years of existence, you are the very first person who told me this “I-Thought-It-Was-A-Joke-But-You-Are-Serious” statement.
As a persuasive fangirl, I thought to myself that I should make you appreciate their music, that you should know that it is What Makes You Beautiful, not Make You Beautiful. The group may be in hiatus but their music is and will always remain superior. You are hard-headed lad. We even when to the point where you challenged me to treat so I can make you watch their music video. Am I even surprised that I agreed to this? HAHA. I feel like an agent trying to persuade her customer to buy a property on our company. You do not know how happy I was when you sent me your video listening to What Makes You Beautiful. I felt like I successfully closed a deal with my client. Not to exaggerate but I really jumped because of happiness after watching your video. It was the first message I checked that morning. Thank you for your effort, so much appreciated. Funny how our conversation starts with your innocence on One Direction until it goes deeper and last longer. Up All Nigh conversations which turned to almost Midnight Memories. Ironic how a Directioner had developed an admiration on someone who dislikes her favorite boys? Just like One Direction’s song, Change My Mind, “Never felt like this before. Are we friends or are we more?” I guess, like Liam’s line on Love You Goodbye, “It's inevitable everything that's good comes to an end. It's impossible to know if after this we can still be friends.”
I was happy that I made you listen to One Direction. At least I made you appreciate and made you aware that there is a song called, What Makes You Beautiful, not Make You Beautiful. I am happy that you already found your Girl Almighty. Wish me luck on finding my Summer Love. xoxo, Your Directioner friend
Here's a fan art that I made for Lee Joo Young of Itaewon class! I've been making digital illustration since last year and I'm happy that I was able to see my improvements. I'm also happy to see people's reactions and support for my craft even though all of it are made through my phone (adobe illustrator) only ????. You don't actually have to use expensive or complicated medium as long as you know how to be creative and like what you're doing, then you can do it. ????