From Our Readers: To the Guy I Broke My Own Heart For
We were young, naive and innocent the time this thrilling moment happened. You became my seatmate along with your other friends. Seeing and talking to you was never a dull moment since you always radiate positive vibes. A handful of girls even liked you for it, and of course your good looks. We became acquaintances, then friends, then a new feeling kicks in me, but I never told you anything about it. Then there came a picture of a heartbeat and a question was raised, "If this stops, would you miss me?" and moments later I knew you're into me. And that is how it all began.
At that time, I didn't even know what it was. Yet the butterflies in my stomach each time you looked at me somehow validated it was something else. We became a duo, a pair perhaps, but never quite one because we're both young. Even though there were obstacles, these feelings seemed to blossom into something more, something deeper.
Graduation. That's what happened. We wanted to be together but plenty of boulders seemed to be on our path towards togetherness. Goodbyes were said and we went our separate ways. But our link still remained, thanks to social media. A new chapter of our lives was made without each other, yet we chose to stay intact of each other's lives.
You're in a new school, with a new set of friends, a new life. Every day it appears to me that I slowly hinder you to what you might have become without me. You do well with your new environment. And I seem to become the ony thing you carry from your old life. The thought of me pulling you backwards kills me, so I decided to make the most stupid decision of my life. I loved you so much that I let you go, saying I liked someone else, even if there wasn't a soul I loved other than yours. And that's how it ended.
Pieces of you were left in my heart, or at least my perception of you. I know it helped. But at that moment, I was shattered. I didn't know something helpful to other people would result to adverse effects on myself. Yet it made me stronger, in every sense of the word. I never imagined that this would happen, to have someone I broke my own heart for.
Indeed, this happened ages ago. I just want to give you my regards and gratitude for every memory I had with you. I'll always be your friend if you need one. And I sincerely apologize for that thing I did. Someday, you'll thank me for it. Just think of it this way, we're one heartbreak closer to happily ever after.
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