You knew it. But I can't blame you. Days, weeks, months or even a year before it ended, you already knew it was going to happen. It was inevitable. You love him so much, I know, but as they say, things don't work out well like what you planned it to.
You were right for each other. At first. You are this strong-willed, independent girl and he's the soft-hearted, kind boy. You complement each other. You're both in love with each other, madly inlove that you thought it was going to last forever. He was your comfort zone, and you were his confidant. Things got pretty serious and you promised each other no one will give up. Everything was going too well but you knew it will come to this.
You don't know what went wrong, or what happened. You just woke up one day and you're not feeling "it" anymore. You're no longer secure in his arms. He's no longer making you feel safe when he's around. You feel it, don't you deny it. He says his i love you's but you feel there's something. Something different this time. Something foreign. You fought it off, and you thought you won it but in reality you don't. Days gone by, weeks have passed. And it's all coming to you now.
He has been treating you less, and you know it. You thought that if you'll keep fighting then you'll make it through. He has been cold to you more than ever. Your fights have gone on much longer. He stayed up weeks not talking to you. And so weeks became months. You know it. You know it very well. And I can't blame you if you can't walk out from him even if he clearly did that to you. You knew he has fallen out of love, but I can't blame you if you still loved him even more inspite of learning that. I can't blame you for fighting for him. I can't blame you from wanting someone to stay in your life. Because I know you need him. He is your comfort zone. Every thing seems to fall into its place once he wrapped his arms around you. Everything seems so at peace whenever you're with him. He is your bridge. Your bestfriend. Your person. And I understand that you don't want to lose him. You don't want to lose the person you thought would keep his promises.
But that's not the case now. He is long gone even before you bid goodbye. He is long gone even before you both decided to break it off. He's not there anymore when you were screaming words of love while you were making love. He's not there anymore. So stop. Stop fighting for him. blaming yourself. Stop asking the what ifs. Stop hurting yourself. Stop crying at night and wishing all these was just a dream. Stop begging him to stay when you know very well that he left you already. Stop it. Stop.
Stop begging him to stay when you know very well that he left you already.
You deserve better than this. You deserve happiness. Do me a favor and move on. There's so much in store for you. I know you thought he's finally the one, but darling, if he's really the one, then why are you crying and suffering right now? I know it's hard. I know. But you gotta get up and face the reality. This is no fairytale. You need to move on and forget him. I can't promise you a better tomorrow once you start today. But what I can say is that, you're one step closer to finding your right man when he broke your heart. You'll find someone who will stay. You'll find someone who will love you and will never stop loving you. So forgive him, then forget him. You're a strong girl, you can do this.
Sent in by Gerla Marie Celda. Submit your feels, too!