From Our Readers: To the Friend I'm Not Sure I Lost
Surprisingly, it's been a couple of weeks since we last spoke. It's been almost a month since we last exchanged words (hurtful ones, without a doubt). I never thought we'd reach a point when this would happen. Sure, we could go on for a day or two (three maybe), but never for weeks, never for almost a month.
I never thought it would last this long. I never thought it would go this far. But perhaps, that's how much forces despised seeing us together; they fought to break anything and everything in between us. And boy, did they succeed.
Maybe it was me being too emotional, hurt and sensitive. Maybe it was you, failing to swallow back the words that overflowed from the tip of your tongue and the pink of your lips. Maybe it was both of us, ignoring our slowly-drifting friendship. It was the two of us letting pride overpower a friendship and break a bond so tight, it tore apart.
Maybe it was both of us, ignoring our slowly-drifting friendship.
Every day, it killed me. It killed me to see you pass straight by me as if I were some stranger. It was murder to witness you happy with someone who obviously wasn't me. Perhaps it was easy. I was just one person; that wouldn't affect you. My presence can be replaced with the presence of many (9-11 to be exact). It stabbed me like a dagger straight to heart to look at you every day, hopelessly and foolishly waiting for you and him to say a word to me. But sadly, you didn't seem to care.
I didn't seem to matter.
I didn't seem to matter to you (and to him) and as time flew, I got used to it. Shockingly, I became fine with it.
However, there are days when I just want to break down in front of you. Sometimes, I want to crush the walls around me the way my spirit was crushed, brutally and with no mercy. (Yes, I was that affected and I still am) Until now, I die to reach out, grab your hand and just tell you how hurt I am. I ache to ask you if for once, would it kill you to listen to the real reason why. I think it's no use anymore. Maybe it’s not "friendship over." It still is, but unfortunately with a river-wide gap in between two rough lands.
I don't really know what I want you to feel or what I want this letter to make you feel. I don't care if you'll cry over it or rip it to shreds in the span of seconds. I don't need an answer to all things I have and will continue to whine about. I just want to make the effort. I just want to tell you a tale of two who have turned into complete and utter strangers.
There's so much I want to say but words aren't enough to express such pain, hurt and loneliness I have been feeling. I miss having the person I'd roll eyes with after judging someone silently. I miss having someone who'd fetch me in the span of fifteen minutes just so we could dine at our favorite restaurant. Sadly, the truth hurts; you lose some, you win some and life would never stop for anyone.
I truly hope you're happy. I hope you're happy with every aspect of your life; you're too blessed to be lonely. Don't forget to smile more often, it'll suit you the best. I'll be proud of anything you will achieve in the future—whether I'm part of it or not. Know that when you need me, whether it's for advice, gossip, a shoulder to cry on, or simply just someone to talk to, I am a message away. And when you do message, call or reach me in any possible way you could, I’ll be right there to answer.
I'm not sure if I lost you. Maybe I did. Probably, along the way I already did. I just clung on too tight and blinded myself from the devilish reality flashing right in front of me—losing you.
PS — I wrote this like your favorite Candy articles.
That friend who's probably a stranger now
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Here we are — with rough hands entwined, damned hearts at peace, broken souls resting with ease —savoring each passing moment before we part ways...hoping things will turn out to be okay. Here we are — standing still, keeping our earnest desire and ardent passion for each other at bay — hoping the Universe will finally grant us of the day that we no longer have to pretend... that things will no longer have to end.
Here we are — with crooked smiles, lingering touch that will last for a while -- gathering all the remaining courage to set each other free. Wishing for the day that our hearts will no longer have to worry. Here we are letting each other go. Even though we both know that the future is uncertain. Even though we're unsure if our paths will cross once again.
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To the Person Who Does Not Know Any 1D Song
By: CJ Reyno
Never in my wildest dream I imagined to meet someone who does not know a single One Direction song or who does not even know, Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson, Liam Payne, Niall Horan, and err… Zayn Malik. How did you spend your teenagehood without listening to their songs? The disrespect to my #StyPayHorLikSon. My initial reaction, Vas Happenin’?
Since I was 12 years old, that was way back on 2012, One Direction songs have been my official life soundtrip, my go-to songs whenever I feel happy, sad, mad, excited, and etch. I can still remember how people went crazy just to attend their concert here in the Philippines. I must admit, I was one of those. LOL. The group was also dubbed as, “The Biggest Boyband in the World”. They were an era. You really left me in awe when you told me that you do not know a single One Direction song. Their songs are gold. But I was a little hopeful when a new messaged popped up on our conversation, “Hey I know one, Make You Beautiful”.
You do not know how my world collapsed after reading your message. I would like to say that I appreciate the effort, thanks, but they do not have a song entitled, Make You Beautiful, because it is, What Makes You Beautiful. I tried to explain but you said that they are just the same. (Tip: Never fight with a Directioner when it comes to this because we will not let our guards down). No! They are not the same. How can you make this big mistake? LOL. What Makes You Beautiful is One Direction’s debut song. Almost everyone knows this, “you’re insecure, don’t know what for,” ring a bell? The music video of this surpassed 1 billion views on Youtube. On my 21 years of existence, you are the very first person who told me this “I-Thought-It-Was-A-Joke-But-You-Are-Serious” statement.
As a persuasive fangirl, I thought to myself that I should make you appreciate their music, that you should know that it is What Makes You Beautiful, not Make You Beautiful. The group may be in hiatus but their music is and will always remain superior. You are hard-headed lad. We even when to the point where you challenged me to treat so I can make you watch their music video. Am I even surprised that I agreed to this? HAHA. I feel like an agent trying to persuade her customer to buy a property on our company. You do not know how happy I was when you sent me your video listening to What Makes You Beautiful. I felt like I successfully closed a deal with my client. Not to exaggerate but I really jumped because of happiness after watching your video. It was the first message I checked that morning. Thank you for your effort, so much appreciated. Funny how our conversation starts with your innocence on One Direction until it goes deeper and last longer. Up All Nigh conversations which turned to almost Midnight Memories. Ironic how a Directioner had developed an admiration on someone who dislikes her favorite boys? Just like One Direction’s song, Change My Mind, “Never felt like this before. Are we friends or are we more?” I guess, like Liam’s line on Love You Goodbye, “It's inevitable everything that's good comes to an end. It's impossible to know if after this we can still be friends.”
I was happy that I made you listen to One Direction. At least I made you appreciate and made you aware that there is a song called, What Makes You Beautiful, not Make You Beautiful. I am happy that you already found your Girl Almighty. Wish me luck on finding my Summer Love. xoxo, Your Directioner friend