From Our Readers: To the Boy I Made Up In My Head

And now that you are miles away where I can't see you, I am nothing.
by You!   |  Aug 6, 2015
ART Trixie Ison
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You were a stranger to me once.

I thought I knew you, but it turns out that I only knew you through my imagination, and the bits and pieces I fabricated in my brain. The bad thing about all of this is that I got used to that made-up image of yours that it almost impaired me when I realized that it wasn't enough.

It will never be enough.

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I got used on depending to it so much, so much that when you were gone, I felt like I was almost nothing. Like I fell down a rabbit hole, and I didn't know what to do. The nothingness was eating me up, almost consuming my thoughts and leading me to nowhere.

It's crazy how all of this happened just because I made you up in my mind. You were never really mine to begin with. You just stood there, a good, few meters away from me and after looking at you for a very long time, I managed to drag you down this rabbit hole of mine with you being totally unaware.


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And now that you are miles away where I can't see you, I am nothing. And it saddens me to realize what a fool I've become when I got so upset you were gone when I never really had the right or even the permission to be. I didn't lose you.

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I will never lose you for I didn't even have you in the first place. You were there, but never within my grasp, never within my touch. I just fabricated you in my mind.

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You were a stranger to me once, and you will be a stranger to me forever.

Krizia Palisoc blogs at missykrizzy.wordpress.comGot your own story to tell? Drop us an email at candymagazine! We'd love to hear what you have to say. If you're lucky, you just might get published in this space, too!

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