From Our Readers: My Month of "Forever"
"I guess that's how it goes. People easily come and go."
I've been wondering what went wrong with our blossoming love. I admit it, we've known each other for just a month but with that little time spent, I felt like I've found the man whom I'd gladly spend forever with.
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I guess I was wrong. I believed your promises. I believed your genuine happiness whenever you were with me. Your smiles, your kisses on my forehead, your hugs, and your kilig gestures. I never thought I'd meet a guy like you after being in pne hell of a relationship. You helped me move on easily and made me realize that the pain shouldn't linger on for too long because someone out there can easily turn the tears into smiles. And that someone was you.
We were happy. We dated, saw each other often, spent quality time, and talked online or through calls and text messages for almost 24 hours a day. You didn't bother if you had class the next day because for as long as work stuff keeps me awake, you'd stay on the phone with me. You became my confidante and my stress reliever. Whenever I was feeling down and low, you were there to cheer me up. You even gave me a letter promising that you'll never leave and would want to get to know me better so when the right time comes, we can have our own "forever." You even surprised me with my cravings. You gave what I wanted even if I didn't ask for it. You accompanied me wherever I wanted to go and we even heard Mass together. We watched every movie that we liked and how can I even forget your I love yous whenever we'd part ways.
Now, I'm wondering what went wrong. What happened to the love that I've invested my emotions on? What happened to the promises? To our plans? To the trips, hobbies, and everything that we'll do together?
You entered my life that easy. Now you left me in just a blink of an eye. I've been so gullible for putting my faith in you. For believing in you. For making plans with you.
You helped me move on from my past love, but you never taught me how to stay happy without you.
I guess this what really happens when you easily open up your heart to someone when you aren't ready yet, when you haven't completely healed your wounds yet. You become so vulnerable with the desperation to be whole, not realizing that being in a hurry can cause you more damage than healing.
You must keep in mind that a broken heart takes time to heal. You don't even need to depend on others to be happy. Spend time with yourself and when you feel completely whole again, then that's the time for you to give your heart again to someone. Don't rush things. Don't be in a hurry. Believe that there's a right time for everything. Ika nga nila, "sa tamang panahon."
And to guy who left me broken, again, thank you for that mini "forever" we had. I wish you luck in your studies and future endeavors. I'll continue praying for you to be happy and I hope you find your purpose in life. Take time to think before saying and acting on anything. I loved you.
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