You were everything I ever wished for, the one who I thought I would be spending my life with. We built and created dreams for both of us. We had plans, what happend to them? I never planned for you to leave my life.
Losing you drove me crazy for a few weeks or even months. It was lonely not having you. I had to do a lot of things alone since you left, and I promise it was never easy to change something you got so used to. I never went to the mall and cinemas alone, because I used to do all those things with you. Luckily I have my best friend who loves corny rom-com movies like me, like you. I cuddle with my pillow every time I sleep, just like how I sneak myself in your arms and feel protected whenever I fall asleep with you. Everything I do reminds me of you and it hurts. I sometimes wonder if you were hurt just like me or are you enjoying life without my company? I was just not that ready for you to leave my life. I never saw it coming.
Now, I'm getting a little bit used to picking up groceries by myself, driving on my own and not hearing "Slow down , we're not racing with my cousins. We might get caught, just let me drive." Or "Don't bother driving. I'll pick you up." I have to do things on my own now. And start a life without you in it. But you will always be a part me—a piece of my heart was gone when you left and I won't get it back as a reminder that I loved someone so much.
Sooner or later we'll have lives of our own without each other, and it will never be easy for me. But no matter what happens, I'll always be happy for you—whatever your life choice will be.
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