From Our Readers: I Only Wanted You to Notice Me
We all want to make a mark in people's hearts and minds. Don't ever judge attention seekers, because we all look for some kind of attention, maybe just in different ways.
Sometimes, we seek it in a showy and obvious way. But just because some people don't show it as clearly as others doesn't mean they don't feel the need to be given attention.
We all want to be remembered. And we want to be remembered because of the good we've done.
I only wanted to be noticed. Yes, I was an attention seeker but I only wanted yours. I found it so hard to catch your attention. No matter how many times I walked passed you or tried to impress you, you never noticed me.
You were too blinded by the girl who broke your heart. And it burned me alive that I couldn't be the one by your side. I wasn't the one you needed. No matter how hard I tried, it was her. And it would always be her.
We were friends only because we were classmates. At first, I thought you were fond of girls who were focused on their academics, because you only talked to me when you would copy my homework. But then, I only saw your eyes brighten when she was the one who recited in class.
I thought you were impressed with musically talented girls. I played the guitar in front of you and sang songs of your favorite bands, but my voice wasn't the one you wanted to hear.
Now, I've transferred schools, and we've gone separate ways. I thought that this would be the key to forgetting you and wanting your attention. Why am I waiting of your text telling me you miss me? And that you want to see me? Texts that I know will never come but I'm still hoping for.
Written by Audrey Ibanez. Got your own story to tell? Drop us an email at candymagazine @gmail.com! We'd love to hear what you have to say. If you're lucky, you just might get published in this space, too! Please indicate if you want to remain anonymous. We're also looking for artwork and illustrations to use with the stories, so please send some in if you want to be featured!