From Our Readers: I'm Not Done Loving You Yet
I'm not done loving you yet but you make me feel you're done loving me. It's been 8 months since we broke up but the love still the same since I met you. And the pain is still the same since you left me, when you never called or texted, when you stopped saying "I love you." And to be honest, I'm still wasting time loving you.
I spent 8 months trying to figure out why you left me and stopped loving me and you only reason I could think of is that you don't deserve to be my boyfriend.
I always ask myself why you left me ? Why wasn't I enough? Maybe because I'm boring or maybe you can't love me. Maybe I'll be able to accept it if you say that you can't love me.
I've been a mess every day since you left me. I cry every nightwhen I remember all the memories. I break down and cry. I don't know what to do. I travel and travel to try and forget you and yet I still missing you and my love for you is still the same. I don't know what to do or how to forget you.
Maybe I'm just a girl who will love you even if you'll only break my heart.
I choose to be blind even if I know the truth. I choose to be hurt just to stay with you, thinking that maybe one day you'll see my worth and all my efforts. I keep hoping that maybe one day, you will love me the way I love you.
I always see myself happy beside you but deep down in my heart, I feel broken. All my life I've been played with, and you don't know how scared I was when I met you. I wasn't sure if it would turn out okay, but then, I took a risk. I fell in love.
I want to hear the truth even if it is painful than listen to sweet lies that are good to hear but in reality will kill you softly. The fact is, love is not enough to keep them. Love doesn't always come in an instant. Love is terrifying. It's painful. And yet it's also somehow healing. Love isn't something that can be easily described or held. It can only be felt. What hurts us is what heals us.
I hope one day when I wake up in the morning, I'll get tired of loving you, crying every night, and breaking my own heart. I hope l'll realize how much you hurt me in the past and that there are so many reasons why I shouldn't take you back.
"Don't let heartbreaks turn you into another person."
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