I know this may sound like a cliche but I didn't expect that you would mean this much to me. I didn't expect that I'd stare at the ceiling at 3 in the morning without noticing I already have tears in my eyes, I didn't know I'd be this affected since I'ev been known as a strong person.
Remember when we would stay up late and have a chat because you were asking for my help about having a crush on my best friend? I enjoyed every little bit of it. What about when she declined you and you were so broken-hearted and I tried my very best to give you my comforting words just to make you feel better? Days passed by I feel so anxious because I think a small part of me had already fallen for you.
We continued talking and you were so sweet and gentle to me, to the point that I can finally say I have fallen in love with you already. But I remained silent because you are my best friend and I don't want to ruin anything in our friendship. You finally moved on from my best friend and I was so happy for you.
There are nights that you would tell me "I love you" and I was so scared to tell you "I love you, too" because what If you didn't mean it? And I was right! You were only joking. You would also tell me "Hey, always remember you and me against the world" and I would answer "Of course." Those were the days that I enjoyed your company that I wished you won't leave but I was wrong.
You had this ex-girlfriend that you really loved so much and you would tell me that you'd do everything just to make her happy. Did you know that I really wanted to be in her position that time? And again you asked for my help with what to do and what to tell her and because I loved you that much, I was so game to help you and that was so stupid of me. I wanted to stop, I really did. I was so broken that I already forgot who really was I and I wished I could tell you everything but it's all too late!
After that day, your name suddenly popped on my notification box and I suddenly checked it. And what I saw left my mouth hanging and brought tears to my eyes and I don't understand what my heart was doing but it felt like it was being crumpled. You told me "Hey! We're together again. Thank you so much." I didn't know if I would kneel down and cry or bring myself to sleep.
Days had passed I realized that maybe we were not really meant for each other as lovers but just best friends. So this is it, I would like to say thank you for coming into my life and making me feel special even just for a little while. Always know that I always got your back and I miss you so much.
"You and me against the world?"
I'm really sorry I fell for you, my bad. The scar that you left will always remain and this will prove that I'm still as strong just like the old times.
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