"Do you still want him back?" My friends asked me. I looked at the sky and saw the stars. I felt a twinge somewhere under my ribs that slowly, tightly presses my organs.You used to say my eyes were like the stars. I wonder if we're still looking at the same sky.
My friends offered me a question that hangs, not upon my mind but upon my heart. Do I still want you back? When after you left, my showers ended in sobs? When I walked down the street and I didn't know what to do with my hands? When I have no one to tell as I saw a puppy down the road. When I saw a tall guy walking beside a woman and it became impossible to proceed and walk normally without weeping. My nights were filled with vodka and champagne. And my days became a drama of sitting on the floor and weep.
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Do I still want you back? When all I ever wanted was to forget your name—the most unfavorable word I could ever utter. Because before, it was the sweetest. And it was my favorite four-letter word aside from "love."
Do I still want you back? When in six months you made my mind haunted? You made me feel that there is anger whenever I am alone with my thoughts. Because everytime I think, I only express an impetuous wish that I could kneel down infront of you and beg you to come back to me. Because I don't know how to begin my life again.
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I don't know how to look at the sky and not see your smile. I don't know how to walk down the street and not feel your touch. I am afraid of my thoughts because I'm incapable of forgetting you. It keeps on shouting your name. Because it honestly says what I choose to hide, that I still want you back. That after all this time, I am still in love with you.
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