"Minsan Nakaka-OP Siya": Being An Irregular Student Is Tougher Than It Seems
College… just saying it makes me want to cry and sleep at the same time. It's hard enough for a regular student, but what irregular students face on a daily basis can sometimes be harder to handle. Not only because they have to take more units than us or take classes twice, it's also due to other inevitable underlying factors that come along with it. Josh Espinoza, a fourth-year marketing management student at San Beda University, shares his ups and downs on his journey as a current irregular student.
The reason behind becoming an irreg
It began in the school year of 2017 when he transferred from UST CFAD as a Fine Arts student majoring in Advertising Arts to become a BSBA Marketing Management major at SBU. He shifted courses because he couldn't see his work receiving the grades it deserves. “It wasn't really worth it for me because I used to create plates as big as 15x20, or even bigger. I usually stay up for a total of two days with minimal food intake because I have to focus on finishing my plate, after doing that, I usually get a grade of 2.75 or even a 5.” He felt useless, unwelcomed, and unworthy. So he thought, if continuing the course he had in UST meant that he would endure negative feelings throughout college, it might just be better to shift courses despite knowing that he will be an irregular student.
You'll have to work extra hard because of your extra load.
A recurring problem that irreg students face is that the load they take every semester is often heavier than regular students’ since they are catching up on their classes. So, since then, time management became his friend in order to excel. And that is true, balancing everything and knowing what to prioritize can be overwhelming at times, but as you get used to it, it can help you be successful in your future endeavors.
It makes you feel O.P. sometimes.
Besides catching up with classes for his new course, various problems started to latch on to him as well. In his first semester in SBU, he failed one of his classes and got mixed with a different block as he had to take it a second time around—which was a tough fate to go through since he did not know anyone from there. "I didn't know anyone... the profs they have, the blockmates of the section I enrolled in, no one. I didn't know what I was going to do. When the first to the third week of classes came, I didn't know what they're talking about."
Adjusting to a new class is one of the prevalent dilemmas that irreg students encounter: Not knowing who to contact when you need help on your subjects, missing reminders often because you're not included in the class group chat, and witnessing the block’s bond and inside jokes and not being able to relate and laugh along. He shared, "It all went fine but it was so hard not being with your blockmates. You don't know what they are up to because they have a different schedule than you, you have no idea where you can reach for help since you're just fairly new to the other section. Everything was so confusing."
You'll feel unsure of yourself sometimes.
Intimidation also got the best of him along the way. Since he's new in the program and all of his classmates already had a working idea of what they are studying, he felt like he was below his peers.
"Siguro iyong time na nagsabay-sabay ang deadline in one day and I was so anxious to the point where I didn't want to pass it all because I wasn't really satisfied with the requirements I did. Then ‘yun, I did [submit] my requirements but I flunked them all," he said.
That did not let him slow down his pace though. He began to change his perspective on his situation into a more positive view and changed his behavior towards the hardships he encountered.
You’ll find your way around it.
He knew that the only way out of his misery was to change his attitude towards it. He shared what he did to adapt, "I worked on building connections with other people outside my block [since I realized we could] help one another pass the subject rather than compete with each other."
College is not about who's on top and who's not. It's breaking your barriers to explore and create connections that can help you grow not only as a student, but as an individual. Take it from Josh's experience—"I've learned how to compromise and mingle with others. It really takes time for other people to get used to what they have or what they are given..." This shows that taking the time to know how you can fix the problem is better than just letting it be that way and going with the flow. You can't move forward until you make an effort to get out of that deadly zone.
Just a reminder from Josh to his fellow irreg students, "Don't lose hope if you flunked a subject or two... there's still someone willing to help you get through whatever problems you're having. Try to build connections in your school because it'll be a huge help to your college and work life in the future."
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I've been investing in arts, photography, and writing. I've also got back to reading the other day and I finished reading this amazing book entitled 300 Things I Hope by Iain S. Thomas. It is all about the things the author hopes his readers to do in all aspects of life. So, I decided to make a version of it with all of the things I'm hoping for.
I hope I get to see my friends be successful in life. I hope to make a big mural someday. I hope to be a well-known artist like the artists I look up to. I hope to marry the person I am in love with today. I hope to be a little kinder to myself. I hope to see happiness even in the smallest things. I hope to travel the world. I hope to be a good mother and a wife to my future family. I hope to have my artworks displayed in a gallery or an exhibit. I hope to learn more about creative writing. I hope I won't learn how to get tired and give up my passion. I hope I won't get too hard on myself whenever I don't get the results I've been wanting to see in my works. I hope to love myself more even on the days I hate it the most. I hope to lead and empower women; to be their voice and for them to believe in themselves that they can be the woman they look up to. And when I've reached my limit of these things, I hope I won't get tired of reminding myself that my emotions don't make me weak, hence, makes me stronger. These are some of the things I always hope for. What about you? What are you hoping for?
I started fixing myself this quarantine. I mean, I started trying makeup products. As a teen, I'm on my phone almost every hour of the day, scroll on my social media accounts, especially Instagram, and also Pinterest where you get to see nice and pleasing photography by bunch of amazing and beautiful people from different parts of the world. So I started taking my own as well. I did not know that taking your own photo and try to get an Instagramable one is sooooooooo hard, it's exhausting. I do not have alot of space in my room, and I would definitely not do it outside our house because of Corona Virus, and I don't want to be seen by our neighbors HAHA so I have no choice but to make tiis inside my room.
Out of atleast 25 shots, only 2 are a nice picture. While I'm all sweaty and tired, I am proud of what I could do beyond my comfort zone. And this definitely built my self confidence, (and I secret love the compliments I received from both people I know and don't know) It's not my first time visiting in here, Candy! But I'm new to writing my thoughts and experiences, so bare with me HAHA.
Until next time!
First. Pixie dust and paper cuts – these are the first things Wendy knew about Peter Pan. Aurora first met Prince Philip when she was sixteen. Learning how to ride a bike was also a first while I was growing up, but you are probably the first of too many. The first collection of dust and stars; maybe Luna will try to ask, who was your first? I might answer and tell her that it was you.
The first of too many stars in the sky. You are the first of too many fallen leaves during fall – and you will be the most anticipated snowflake as winter comes. A dark path that you can’t see without any light, hence, you were once the moon and there are the stars that shine so bright at night. Are we too early? Or we just really want to be ahead of time? Even in a glimpse, I would like to see the two of us connect as if we can reach the sky. There are other parts of the heavens you have never saw and other oceans you haven’t laid your feet onto – but the constellations will always wait for you. Close your eyes, love, close your eyes. Start counting backward: 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. Count backward until you see the twinkling lights that will guide you to the right path. To the right satellite; to the right person. A first.
There are many firsts – first love, first heartbreak, first sport you played, the first thing you do in the morning, the first thing you remember about the person in front of you. There are a lot. It’s actually up to us how we will consider something as a first. So, Primo, you are already a first of too many.