An Open Letter To The Girl Who Always Feels Out of Place
You're laughing along at a joke you don't understand, smiling anyway because you don't want to come off as rude. People nod and walk away when you tell them about a new book you're currently so invested in. They acknowledge your presence from a distance but only occasionally invite you into their conversations. Everyone else seems to have so much fun and are all so comfortable with each other's presence, as you sit at the corner with your earphones plugged in as you eventually shut the world out and enter your own little space so distant from reality.
You've been told that you should smile more, try reaching out to other people more, be a little bit more positive; to just simply be more and go out of your comfort zone. You agree with what they say and you definitely think you should try new things every once in a while, but you’re tired of hearing the same things all over again. You’re tired of people telling you to be someone you're not. You’re tired of constantly being pressured to let people in when they won’t even give you even the slightest interest. Don’t they have anything new to say this time?
You seek refuge in your room, your own private, comfortable space You’d much rather stay there, where there’s no one around to make you feel so isolated and judged. From books to music to movies, you can identify so well with these well-rounded protagonists from these works of art, thereby understanding them in a way that you think the people around you don’t seem to. You feel a rush of joy and adrenaline once someone does show interest in the things you love to do, but eventually become disappointed when they’ve found other people to share their interests with. It seems like everybody’s so busy with everything and you’re stuck at a point in time, keeping quiet instead and wishing you could slowly excuse yourself, or even sometimes, disappear into your own quiet, private refuge. It feels like, once again, that you are alone.
But the thing is that you are not. You are not alone in your journey and you are most certainly not alone in this life. It doesn’t matter how many people there are in your life, but what matters is the fact that there are people in your life. You are not the only person who feels alone, misunderstood, and at the wrong place at times. You are not and never alone.
You will find your place. It may not be where you are right now, and it most certainly won’t always be right where you want it to be, but you should always remember, again and again, that you are never alone. You should never forget that you are not the only one who's struggling to find your place in this world and are definitely not the only person who has experienced feeling so misplaced before.
Cliché as it may be, but you should never try to change just so you can belong. You may not be other people's cup of tea, and other people may not be to your liking, but you should never force yourself in a situation you don't want to be in. People will learn to appreciate your beauty and kindness and you will learn to become a better version of yourself in due time without having to give in to the pressures around you. All good things take time and so should you.
Whether it's all in your head or you are able to observe on a daily basis, you should give yourself a chance and a little bit of credit every once in a while. You may want to give yourself a shot and get out of your comfort zone, but remember that you should do it for yourself and without having to hurt other people in the process. They are human too and might also be going through the same thing. You are your own person you are the choices that you make, and these choices should always make you a better person for yourself and for people who just might feel the same
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Hi! It's been so long since I planned to post my story in another platform aside from wattpad and now here I am, hoping that my story can be featured here.
My story is entitle "Who Are You," it's a tagalog-english teen fiction story so I hope, those filipinos who visit here can read my story!
WHO ARE YOU: PRELUDE
Sinungaling na ba ako kung sasabihin ko sa inyo ang pangalan ko? Hindi ako sure kung anong sasabihin kong pangalan ko pero may nagsasabi sa aking wag nalang magpakilala sa inyo.
May gusto lang naman akong itanong... Paano kung may makilala ka sa kasalukuyan na nagpapaalala sayo sa nakaraan? Anong gagawin mo kung ang nakilala mo sa kasalukuyan ay may tinatago pa lang sikreto na kahit siya mismo ay walang alam pero may kinalaman sa iyong nakaraan? Anong gagawin mo kung ang dalawang ito ay may koneksyon? Anong pipiliin mo? Ang nakilala mo sa nakaraan? O ang nagpakilala bilang ibang tao sa kasalukuyan? Past? Or Present?
There was this guy I dated for a while but things didn't turn out well. I was so into him that one night I can't stop thinking about him, I've decided to send his MOM a message on facebook confessing how much I like her son. I wish it ended there but no. I had to make it so emotional, lengthy and detailed like the drama queen I am. Luckily, it went to message request so I'm hoping she hasn't really read it yet. Up until this day it makes me cringe whenever I think about it but hey, whenever it pops in my mind I make myself laugh too so thank you self for being unbelievably shameless and brave when it comes to love. I may age faster because I have made a lot of cringe-worthy moments that I constantly make faces out of embarrassment just reflecting on my antics but I know I've made more hilarious memories than what ifs and somehow that makes the disappointments feel more like assurances that I have gave it my all and I have lived as honest (maybe a little to honest) as I could. #ItsOnlyNatural #CanBnatural
I've been investing in arts, photography, and writing. I've also got back to reading the other day and I finished reading this amazing book entitled 300 Things I Hope by Iain S. Thomas. It is all about the things the author hopes his readers to do in all aspects of life. So, I decided to make a version of it with all of the things I'm hoping for.
I hope I get to see my friends be successful in life. I hope to make a big mural someday. I hope to be a well-known artist like the artists I look up to. I hope to marry the person I am in love with today. I hope to be a little kinder to myself. I hope to see happiness even in the smallest things. I hope to travel the world. I hope to be a good mother and a wife to my future family. I hope to have my artworks displayed in a gallery or an exhibit. I hope to learn more about creative writing. I hope I won't learn how to get tired and give up my passion. I hope I won't get too hard on myself whenever I don't get the results I've been wanting to see in my works. I hope to love myself more even on the days I hate it the most. I hope to lead and empower women; to be their voice and for them to believe in themselves that they can be the woman they look up to. And when I've reached my limit of these things, I hope I won't get tired of reminding myself that my emotions don't make me weak, hence, makes me stronger. These are some of the things I always hope for. What about you? What are you hoping for?
I started fixing myself this quarantine. I mean, I started trying makeup products. As a teen, I'm on my phone almost every hour of the day, scroll on my social media accounts, especially Instagram, and also Pinterest where you get to see nice and pleasing photography by bunch of amazing and beautiful people from different parts of the world. So I started taking my own as well. I did not know that taking your own photo and try to get an Instagramable one is sooooooooo hard, it's exhausting. I do not have alot of space in my room, and I would definitely not do it outside our house because of Corona Virus, and I don't want to be seen by our neighbors HAHA so I have no choice but to make tiis inside my room.
Out of atleast 25 shots, only 2 are a nice picture. While I'm all sweaty and tired, I am proud of what I could do beyond my comfort zone. And this definitely built my self confidence, (and I secret love the compliments I received from both people I know and don't know) It's not my first time visiting in here, Candy! But I'm new to writing my thoughts and experiences, so bare with me HAHA.
Until next time!