You’re All I Ever Wanted
Sorry it has to end like this. I never thought words would come out off-handled. My fears got the best of me. Years back, I have practiced how I would say "yes" when you finally ask me out. I got scared. I thought I was ready but it turned out, I'm not. I got scared. I am sorry, I got scared.
You have everything I look for in a guy—wit, talent, and heart. Every single day I wished to be with you. Honestly, I still do. But I blew my chance. Now, all those things I wondered how it would be like being with you will remain as merely imagined. All those lines I've practiced in front of the mirror will be of no use since I no longer have the chance to say it to you. I blew my chance, I am sorry, I got scared.
I blew my chance, I am sorry, I got scared.
I am sorry for the deep wounds I've caused you. I really wanted to be with you but I am not ready yet. Maybe someday when you still love me, I'll come back to you. Please don't hurt yourself thinking you didn't do enough and that you aren't enough. Let me tell you, you are more than enough. It is me who doesn't deserve you right now or may be ever. You have eyes that shine even in the darkest hours, lips that could have girls dreaming how it works, and that hair that everybody wants to touch. Your wit captivates everyone, even me. Your talent amazes big crowds. And your heart? It touches people. I told you. You've got everything. Or at least, everything I look for in a guy. Don't waste your time wondering what went wrong and where you lacked. It was me. It was me that went wrong, that lacked. I got scared.
It wouldn't be easy for us to move on. I know that, in heart and in my mind. Please don't get the wrong idea. I love you and I still do, with all my heart. I'm just not ready yet. I was overwhelmed by the feeling that I got tongue-tied. And I also have my responsibilities as a student, I have my priorities in line. I'm sorry I couldn't get you there. I am sorry for being selfish. I am sorry, I got scared.
It would be unfair if I'd say "yes" when I wouldn't be able to attend to you as your girl. I just couldn't hurt you anymore like that. This line will be the most nonsensical to you now but I'm still telling you this: I'm only doing this for you. I am just as hurt as you are right now. Please do not hurt yourself more because as you do, I also get hurt.
Days will pass by and someday you’ll find someone—another girl who's better than me and could be your girl 24/7. You may meet her in your school, at a restaurant, in a party—anywhere. She may have straight hair or beautiful locks. She may look like your ideal girl. And when you find her, please, please don't be scared.
We may have not been together as a couple. But know that I'll always care about you. You will forever be that guy that has everything and I may not find another one that could top you. Don't blame yourself and your timing on this one. It was me. I am sorry, I got scared. You're all I ever wanted and I blew my chance.