From Our Readers: Your Memories Are Haunting Me
I know words will fail to convey how I feel. But I know that letting go of this raging storm inside me somehow will lessen the pain I'm in.
It must have been months since the last time I have seen your face. It seems ages since the last time I heard your voice—those smiles, those arms that wrapped me warm, and those memories we've shared for years. I really miss you, dearly. But now, things have changed and so did we. Time flew like a dove. I do not know who you are anymore. I know nothing about you.
Was it that easy to trade those times we've spent together for someone you have just met? Why did you spend so much time on me when you weren't even going to stay? Why is it so unfair that I'm still wrapped in these chains of your memory while seeing you happy with her? You have just disappeared out of my life like a bubble.
I had no idea that this could happen to us. We had plans together. We promised that we'll stay in each other's arms for a lifetime. We swore we will fight for this and we'll never lose hope. But I've seen myself holding on to something that is now lost. You could have told me what was wrong, so I could have made the necessary adjustments. And maybe, I'll be able to understand why you left me with a broken heart.
I have loved you from from the deepest corners of my heart, but you chose not to fight for us. Instead, you left me at my worst.
I will try to forget and forgive you, even though I really don't know how. I will treat this pain and anger you have left me as inspirations to go on with life. Life offers us a lot of different paths so we won't dwell in the past. Seeing you happy now makes me feel happy too.
Maybe in another lifetime, we will be together and I can make you and your love stay. Someday, I will get over you. But for now, let me love you until this heart of mine gets tired seeking for your love that was once mine.