From Our Readers: You Weren't Even Mine to Lose
You brought so much joy to my otherwise boring life. You've awakened my sleeping soul. Even I was surprised that I possessed such emotions. You turned my world upside down that I myself was even frightened that I may not be able to cop. I thought you were the answer to my prayers, that you'd be the one to erase all my heartaches and pain. That you'd be my forever. But that was all a lie.
How could someone be the right person when from the start, I know that you couldn't be mine?
I was a fool to believe that everything is possible. You made it so hard for me not to love you even if you were not free. You made me feel like I was the most special girl in the world. You treated me like I was never an option. And I felt it in my heart that I was the luckiest girl, most especially when I knew that I was the reason behind your smiles and laughter. I had the time of my life for the past six months with you. Those stolen times with you were the greatest.
But everything has its own ending, especially if they were stolen. Days passed, and there were no more sweet messages. Just one call a day that would last a minute and you would only remember me when you wanted to. When I ask you if everything is okay, you would always say it is. How can you tell me it's okay when it's not? But I don't have the right to complain.
I want to let go of you and have the courage to do so. I know it would be painful, but loving you would lead me to more pain and heartaches. Whatever I do, there would never be a me and you. I would always be an option, an intruder.
I want to let go of you and have the courage to do so.
You were a dream, my beautiful dream. Just like any other dream that I hope would come true, but it won't. It won't happen for us. I have to wake up from this great nightmare.