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From Our Readers: You Were the First Guy Who Broke My Heart

Out of all the people in this world, I fell in love with someone who couldn't return the favor.
PHOTO Tribeca Film ART Clare Magno

You probably won't expect me to write anything like this since you think I don't have any reason to. Just in case you weren't informed, you have the privilege of being the very first boy to break my heart. Don't worry, it wasn't completely shattered. The pain was just enough to make me feel something.

Honestly, I wasn't blind towards your feelings for another girl. Your actions were subtle, but I noticed somehow. It was fine. I was in denial, but when the whole thing came crashing down all at once, it became too heavy to carry and too hard to handle.

I wouldn't blame you though. She is lovely. She's got all the qualities of the ideal girl. She's beautiful, smart, kind. She knows how to carry herself and she knows her limitations. Most of all, she's a friend of mine who stuck by my side and understood me for all those times.

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I wouldn't deny that I got hurt because I'd be lying to myself if I did.

For the first time that I got myself a chance to take the plunge and just let myself do what I want and feel. I ended up with my heart getting broken in the most complicated and brutal way. It ended up with me regretting the decisions I made. It affected me so much, to be honest. I felt the pang in my heart. I heard the voice in my head telling me that there's someone else. But it's alright because one day, I know it'll all go away.

Maybe I just got confused with the signs, got unusual with how you treated me as if we were more than closest friends. I interpreted them the wrong way. It's a misfortune for me and a treasure for you. Deep inside, I know that she'll like you back—if she hasn't yet already. Just don't break her heart, please? The way you did to mine?

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Don't worry about me because I would grow to be an independent woman who's strong enough to pick herself up. I've been born this way and wouldn't change. I might have gotten insecure and questioned myself if there was something wrong with me, but I'm human and I am bound to feel this way.

My mom said that we cannot control the wound that other souls inflict on us, and she is absolutely right.

My mom said that we cannot control the wound that other souls inflict on us, and she is absolutely right. I am going to take the time to heal because I deserve it. I need it. You were a ray of light that flashed before my eyes. I am a girl who watched you from afar and is going to stay in her place. I will stitch myself up with threads of love and trust until the little hole gets fixed.

I am glad you found someone who can make your heart jump and feel giddy inside, like how you did with mine. I might not be that girl but as I said, it's fine. I will find someone new and this time, I will be more careful. You might have broken my heart, but I won't allow you to hold me back for what is truly meant for me.

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You might have broken my heart, but I won't allow you to hold me back for what is truly meant for me.

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