They say that goodbyes are the hardest, and I can now say that they were right.
I've had two breakups before but I have never experienced a heartbreak until you left my life. We weren't really friends for a long time, I guess. We got to know each other well during junior high. You were this great basketball player who's dating a close friend of mine and for quite some time, that was all I knew about you.
When we became classmates, I was scared of you at first because you were intimidating. I was wrong, of course. You surprised me with who you are and you weren't what I expected. You became a great friend of mine and we'd constantly help each other with our academics. I admired how you managed to juggle sports, academics, and your social life. I miss the times when we'd have friendly academic competitions in class and we'd try to beat each other in the top 10, because we were both very competitive when it came to grades.
For a while, we didn't really have any problems in our friendship but as we got closer, they began showing up. You stopped talking to me in public. You blocked me on social media. You pretended that we're not even talking, just because of the girl you're dating. Some people say that I should just leave, but I didn't know why I couldn't. I became attached to you, in a friendly manner, especially in summer because that was when we became a lot closer.
Some people say that I should just leave, but I didn't know why I couldn't.
We'd have these #MidnightFever talks wherein we'd talk about almost anything you could think of. That made our friendship stronger. I was there for you whenever you felt down and I kept on motivating you whenever you felt like you weren't enough. I guess you could say that I was in love with you in a friendly way, because I loved you so much as a friend—nothing more nothing less—that even though it hurt getting ignored by you in public or getting denied as your best friend, I still stayed because I had hopes for our friendship.
I continued believing that deep down, you really saw me as your best friend. I guess I was wrong.
I don't even know why I'm still writing this but I guess this would help me finally accept the fact that our friendship is over. I did everything I could and it's true what they say that sometimes, even if you do everything you could, it's still not enough for some people. But for me, I've had enough. I got tired of waiting, and please forgive me for being selfish. I got tired of not being able to talk to you in public because your girl might get mad. I got tired of being taken for granted. I got tired of having to tell you how I feel, yet you're not even doing anything to save our friendship. I sent you a long message telling you everything but all I got was a simple "sorry" and a thumbs up.
I got tired of having to tell you how I feel, yet you're not even doing anything to save our friendship.
I loved you but it's time to move on. Can you believe that my friends were happy when they found out that I'm finally saying goodbye to you? I guess our friendship seemed silly to some because you were hiding it. Anyway, you look a lot happier nowadays and your relationship seems to be a lot better than it was when I was still a part of your life. I guess you're better off without me.
Even after all the pain you've caused me, I still wish you the best and I'll always be here in case you want to reconnect. We might never talk again after graduation but I would still silently support you in everything you do. Thank you for all the memories that we've had, for sharing all those stories, and for letting me into your life but it's now time to say goodbye. Good luck in college, future King Tiger. #MidnightFever will always be our thing.