From Our Readers: You Were a Kind Guy But You Still Broke My Heart
I remember the day you made the time slow down by the look of your eyes. Your face was clear in this sea of people, and that made me start to want something I could never have. To the kindest boy who broke my heart, thank you.
I'm really not confident on my own, but you assured me that I am beautiful. Your sweet talks and funny words were the things that made me stop crying. To the kindest boy who broke my heart, thank you.
For the listening ears that you lent me. For all the silly stories that you shared, but made a great impact in my life. For the kindness that broke my heart, thank you.
You made me want to wake up in the morning and see you. Your beautiful face and your soft voice made my heart flutter. And I thank you for that.
For the times we believed in God together. For the faith we agreed to have and to the love we gave Him. To the kindest boy who broke my heart, thank you.
Crazy things can happen when you are in love. You made me think that everything was possible once you put your heart in to it. You made me do all those things. To the kindest boy who broke my heart, thank you.
You made me fall for you harder and I know you didn't have any intention of doing so. It was the moment when I assumed something when there really was nothing. You made confession really hard, but I guess you just really did not want it. You refused to see it because it burdened you. For the times I hated you for laughing at my feelings. For making this a nightmare that I wanted to wake up from. I am sorry.
When the days seemed difficult because you were trying to ignore my thoughts. When I wanted to blame you for every broken piece of my heart when the truth is I am the one who broke it. On the day that you wanted me to move on, but I was still hoping that at least you would acknowledge these feelings. When you told me that this was not love, but infatuation, just a product of my longing and desires, something that's going to stop the moment I snap. I am really sorry.
I am not sorry for the last two things because what you said were true, but I am sorry because I cannot agree with you. The feelings are true. They are genuine and faithful. It's a love I cannot deny and ignore because they are too hard to contain. You underestimated my feelings making those less important but you do not know how much it cost me. They were too painful.
You underestimated my feelings making those less important but you do not know how much it cost me. They were too painful.
Yet you are still the perfect guy for me. You are still the one I dream of every night. I am still wishing on a shooting star for things to be different. You are still the one I am praying for. You are still the kindest boy for me. I will still wish for the friendship to continue someday, but for now let us be strangers. Not because I am mad at you (you know I cannot do that), but because I want to wish you genuine happiness. I want to listen to your love story without crying and breaking down. I want to laugh at your jokes without faking a laugh.
I will leave not because I want to, but because I have to. I have to do whatever it takes to make this right, to accept everything. I will leave because I will mend what you have broken in me. I will get back what I have thrown away.