From Our Readers: You Might Be the One That Got Away
I don't know how to start this and we may not even have so many memories together, but one thing is for sure, I like you and I still do. I was just foolish enough to let you go. I'll forever be sorry and if only I could, I'd say sorry all the time just so you'd believe how much I mean these words.
People change but I still wish you didn't. I still wish you'd message me every month and this time, I promise I'll give you a reply. I promise I'll make it up to you. I promise I'd make you feel special. I promise I'll take good care of you. I promise I won't take you for granted. And I promise I would never, ever let you go again.
If only you'd let me, if only you'd give me one more chance, I'd do anything to make you stay.
Our past is just a broken glass that can never be put back together. That's why I know you won't give me another chance. You won't be able to trust me anymore even if you wanted to. You can't forgive me easily, and I understand that. You don't know how much I regret making you feel this way towards me.
I used to be so foolish to believe in signs and yes, I still do. I keep asking myself, "What's all these for? Why do I feel like I have this connection with you? Is it all happening so I could realize what I lost?" or something like, “Maybe he's still the right guy for me, and what's meant to be will find its way back."
But is it just me or your actions contradict your words? Your words make me feel like you don't care at all, but your actions tell me you still do. I can feel it, like that time when you took care of me because I was too dizzy. Or maybe you probably just did it becuase you didn't have any choice. Or maybe it's just me trying my best to find meaning in all of these. That somehow, I still have a little space in that heart of yours.
We can't keep on avoiding each other, but I guess it's for the best. It's better if we don't see each other nor talk to each other for a while. Because when we try to make things better and less awkward it seems like things only get worse. I've hurt you before that's why you keep on hurting me now.
Then, just when I thought that I'm finally over you, I find you looking so effortlessly good. And I can't keep my eyes off of you. Just when I thought that we're finally getting close to each other again, everything comes crashing down. Again.
The timing was never right for us. Maybe that's the sign I've always needed, but just chose to ignore each time.
I am just really sorry for everything. This will be the last time I'll talk about you, last time to feel sorry, last time for everything between us. I won't bother you anymore.