From Our Readers: You Are Your Own Queen
"She is her own queen and she doesn't need a king to be one."
It used to be a seemingly perfect story of royalties when you were living with your king, ruling the empire, building your own majestic plans, and writing the wonderful pages of story together. It was all about the butterflies, the smiles, and the golden moments which made your relationship continuously grow lush and abundant like a healthy plant. You held his hands during tough times and he holds yours, too. During the difficult times, just one look at him and you'd know that you'll get through them. He treats you like the queen you are. He became your rock, inspiration, buddy, partner, protector, best friend, and lover all rolled into one. He is amazing. You must be thankful to the heavens above how sublime it is to have guy like him by your side.
It was supposed to be a fairy tale. But slowly, your relationship crumbled. You wanted to fight, but he decided to take flight and leave you. You wanted him to stay, but he left you anyway. What an irresponsible and coward king. You had no choice. You don't deserve a person like that in your life.
After waiting and hoping, you're still stuck to that idea that the love he feels for you is enough to lead his steps back to the castle. But you saw him one day with another queen, happily building their own castle together. He acts like you've never been a part of his life.
Here you are now. There's a void in your heart that has to be filled hence, you tried to find a replacement but after few tries you realized that it just doesn't work that way. You are desperate to find happiness and love from others that you don't even realize you're better alone, too.
You don't need a king to define you and make you complete. Your time being single will introduce you to a whole different perspective. You will still miss having someone beside you. The past is not easily forgotten after all, but you'll just learn how to live with these semi-permanent scars. Little by little, you'll get by.
Slowly, you will learn how to appreciate all the things you took for granted. Remember, it's not an easy journey. In fact, there are times when you will feel like you're at the lowest of lows to the point of deeming your existence worthless. There are moments when no wise word could stop the bleeding, even these words I am currently writing won't. You will also suffer from apathy, bitterness, depression, and lack of self-esteem. But always remember to never ever let these thoughts poison your mind.
When it gets tougher, remember that that just means that you're closer to getting to where you're supposed to be.
If a familiar memory triggers a nostalgia, remember that crying will lessen the pain. You can cry but never call that pool of tears your home. Time heals. It's just a matter of perspective. You'll get used to it. Feel the pain until it hurts no more. It's a process, a long winding process. You will get past the broken state with the help of your friends and family and most importantly, God. Never wait for someone else to pick up your broken fragments. The only person you need to get yourself up from the quicksand is you.
The throne is now all yours, so reign the world despite the absence of a king. This situation will give you more opportunities to grow as an individual. This is a pefect time for self-discovery, for soul-searching, and for self-worth.
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I don't know. by Mariella Ysabel Amatus
I don’t know what to do. I feel lost. I don’t know what to do. I feel alone. I don’t know what to do. I feel abandoned. Dreams are things we ought to have. Without them, we might never know where will our future take us. We seem to be trained to have them. I want to be a nurse. I want to be a doctor. I want to be an engineer. I want to be a lawyer. Those are the lines children tell in front of people. It seems simple to dream. To have an ambition. Well, I thought it is. But, now, as I put a book on my lap, thinking about where my fate will lead me, it isn’t.
I feel drowned in the responsibility of knowing what I wanted. The season of college entrance tests are coming. Yet, I feel nothing but doubtful. I studied, but now, I am not doing such a thing. I felt so engrossed the last time I checked myself months ago. Now, I am unsure of what I want to do. I have to study. Yes, I know. However, I feel so dismissive to do something. I can’t even point out what’s the problem in me.
What am I doing? I must go, open some books, and study hard. But, I am never doing it in this present moment. Instead of challenging myself with tons of knowledge, I am here writing this passage with my mind resonating with unspoken words and truth. I seem insane, right? What will happen to me if I keep on doing nothing? Well, simple. I will never be successful - I know that. Then, what must I do?
Asking myself such a question will never suffice what I really need. Because, I’ve been asking myself questions all the time. Yet, I’ve never come up with answers. I don’t know what to do. I feel like being pained. I don’t know what to do. I feel like being tortured. I don’t know what to do. I feel like being misunderstood. I don’t know what to do. I don't know.
A Stranger "Things"
strangers can be not strangers, they can be someone else
Isn't it intimidating to interact with strangers? Majority will say "yes" certainly. No doubt, parents also come up with their very classic "Don't talk to strangers" smart advice for their children. But come to realize to take the opposite approach of it as we grow older, there's a tangled idea in our head it it is beneficial or not.
Finding comfort to someone we don't know is like finding a needle in the bunch of hay. A blurry-blurry thing, a no-percent no-possibility to happen. But not to compare, for others it's like their way of finding comfort, way to socialize, way to widen their circle of acquaintance, that's why psychologist somewhat agree with it. If the person didn't give you a ghastly vibe, why not give it a try to interact. It's kinda weird thing to open doors for strangers,but at the same time, its interesting. Think of this, why its easy for others to share secretes of them, or to have pretty intimate conversation to random person? Cause they say, "No judgement".
Why its okay to ask help to person we dont know if we are in unfamiliar place? Cause they can help us, and same goes in other way. Bottomline, Strangers are not just strangers or a person we dont know, or a person that our parents taught us not to talk to. They can be someone else who can help us in times of unfamiliarity of places or thing. They can be the person who sit next to you in the bus who ask for a little help for direction and end up having a great conversation.
They can be a lot more we didn't expect to, and you can tell by yourself that your best of friends you have today are once a complete stranger to you yet you end up having a strong bond of friendship. They are the person we completely don't know, we dont know their upbringings or what, but sometimes the can be more helpful to us than the others we know. By simply having a casual conversation with them, we're not noticing that they are giving us a diffirent approach to different aspects in life and unfortunately, this idea overpowers by just word "stranger". Hopefully, maybe now or then, we're very thankfull that we took the opposite approach of "do not talk to strangers"
Hi Candy! I saw a repost of your IG story from one of my good friends who happens to be your candy rookie, Margaux Nonato, about students who started their business this quarantine season. I wanted to submit my own story as well but didn’t have the guts to do so, until I read the stories of some students who happen to share the same experience as mine!
Telling my own story might be a little overdue, now that you’ve already published the article but I wanted to give this a try still if it means inspiring other people as well. I am an incoming third year medical student from De La Salle Medical and Health Sciences Institute and I have also decided to do something productive (aside from studying my backlogs of course) and something unique that may help me to challenge myself into exploring new things aside from human anatomy, pathology, and all those medical greatness.
Kudos to everyone who decided to start their online businesses! I must say it isn’t easy at all so we all deserve a round of applause for doing great and getting this far! I’ve always been a fan of baking since I was a kid. I remember making my own chocolate chip cookies when I was in second year high school and back then, I only baked with a microwave (since our oven was whack) and used choco choco as the chocolate in my cookies ???? they are not as bad as they seem! Trust me!
Since then I’ve always dreamed of finding the perfect recipe. I took Biochemistry in college and went straight to studying Medicine so my plan in finding the perfect recipe was always postponed since studying for my future patients will always be my number one priority. (Naks) Then Coronavirus happened. I just finished my last semester for 2nd year Med last June and I’ve decided to finally come up with the perfect chocolate chip cookie recipe, then tried selling them for extra allowance to help in our expenses. In addition to my chocolate chip cookie recipe, I’ve also managed to bake chocolate crinkles and different varieties of brownies! Who would’ve thought that a super busy medical student would have the chance to bake and create her own online business as well? (While in Med School!!!)
So then I started my online business, named “Harina Manila”.You can also find it on instagram and facebook @harina.manila!! I like to call my baked goods “paboridough” because the ones that I bake are indeed my favorites and I‘d like to share it with everyone. Kaya sa mga broken hearted jan, dibale nang hindi ka niya pinili, sa Harina Manila, ikaw ang aming paboridough ???? (hahaha corny!) From deciding what to name your business, to buying ingredients almost every week, and finding the right packaging that fits your style, starting your own online business really takes time and dedication! But as they say, kapag may tiyaga, may nilaga!
This goes not only to medical students like me, but to all students who are struggling to keep themselves sane this quarantine season. Amidst the pandemic that we are facing right now, I hope that we may not forget to take good care of ourselves both physically and mentally. May we find the courage to remain optimistic and try new things that could help us grow and become better. Sharing with you my story this quarantine season, I hope I may be able to inspire other people into believing that they too, can do something amazing, heck there’s no limit to what we can all achieve! As long as we work hard for it, malayo ang mararating natin! I thank you, Candy Mag, for spreading good vibes and inspiration to everyone by publishing good stories! To all the lovely readers who took their time to read Candy’s article, if this ever gets published, I hope you remind yourselves today that you are capable of doing amazing things and that there is no limit to what you can achieve. Fighting! Dont forget to visit, like, and follow my page on Facebook and Instagram, Harina Manila (@harina.manila) and try out some of our baked goods! We got you covered, my paboridough! Thank you! ??
Poetry #1 YOUR SMILE
Just the thought of you gives me fluttering butterflies in my stomach. I love the way you smile like there's just too many passion inside you. It gives me warmth-- your warmth that needs to spread in your cheeks, in your eyes, the wrinkles on your nose and on the corner of your temples that I wanted to kiss with pure gentleness.
When you smile, I always trace back the years when I haven't known you. Where I didn't have the chance to smile back and talk to you even for a short time. To intertwine your fingers in mine or put my arms around you and feel all the vibrations inside you that gives me warmth, comfort and joy. I love seeing you smile even virtually-- because it makes me relive all the times that I still got the chance to see you personally. That is now becoming a beautiful blur.