From Our Readers: When You're Always Doing the Saving
Since you met each other, you've had that special feeling for him. As each day passed by, your feelings for him became stronger. You want to understand him, to love him unconditionally, accept his bad side, keeping in mind that love doesn't judge. Then one day he said that he's falling in love with you too. You take the next steps slowly. You became his supporter, his cheerleader whenever he's down.
He opened himself to you. He said he was the bad guy, saying he's unworthy of the love you give. But you are his comforter and you think you understand him because of his struggles in life. Somehow he was enlightened. But after you have given your time, knowledge, wisdom, happiness and love to him, he left you, for a reason he didn't tell you. No goodbyes, no words, no assurance of his return. He left you with his burdens and left you pain in your heart. Now you're the one who needs saving.
He came back with more problems in his life, heavy baggages. He needs saving. His return was dangerous yet you feel happy that he did. You made yourself believe that the time for you two has finally come. Love is sweeter the second time around.
And for a moment, it really was. You love the spark, the flames. But once again you became his savior. You're scared he'll leave you again, but because you were the savior, you had to hold yourself together and stay strong. You do this, until you realize one day that nothing is left of you. Everything is lost. Now it's hard for you to believe people, to fall in love again because you're afraid that the cycle will go on.
Will you be able to save yourself?
You will, because no matter how painful it is, no matter how deep the hole was, no matter how empty you may feel, you are a savior. You are your own savior. You've always been/ Cry when you want, be alone when needed. Guard it up if you should, but love again because you can. Love has its own way of finding the right one for you, who'll do the saving for you when you couldn't.