From Our Readers: To My Long Distance Best Friend
2015 left us with unspoken issues. 2016 brought us farther apart.
If you don't want to acknowledge that, then I will. We're not even building walls nor burning bridges. We're ignoring the white elephant in the room. That's big enough to break us.
I just miss you. You used to be the first person I'd want to talk to when something good or bad happens to me. I was the one you used to call at four in the afternoon when you're drinking coffee to just tell me about your day. We used to be inseparable; the distance between us was never an issue.
We used to be inseparable; the distance between us was never an issue.
When we were about to go to college, I was thinking of how amazing it would be if we were to experience all the adjustments, the stepping-out-of-our-comfort-zones moments, the newbie to college stuff, and all those things together. But then I thought of it again, wouldn't it be better if we were to experience things separately? It was our chance of letting our own selves grow, because there are things you have to do alone. But now, one semester left before graduation, it's crazy how things have changed.
Wouldn't it be better if we were to experience things separately? It was our chance of letting our own selves grow, because there are things you have to do alone.
We tried to move mountains by changing flight destinations and taking earlier exams so we can meet and catch up. We make plans, but they don't work out the way we want them to. You and I both know that there are a lot of opportunities to mend this. And after endless monologues of trying to convince myself that we're okay, that we're just both busy, that you'd still be there for me, and I'll be there for you, why do our efforts still feel not enough?
Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way. Maybe I want to fix this, but you don't think it's broken. Maybe we're growing apart, and we can't do anything about it anymore.
I know the old you, and I'm trying to catch up with this person you're becoming. I'm happy to see you grow, even if I don't play a big part in it. But, please don't think that I don't appreciate our friendship. We're irrevocably tied together by history, a history that can never be erased. And that, is worth celebrating. Thank you for the friendship. I'll still be here for you even if we're growing apart.