Don't you just hate how a single, little thought feels like a punch in your chest? It won't make you function well the whole day. It will make you lose your senses, make bad vibrations flow through your veins, make your heart skip a few heartbeats, and make your tears flow like there was some kind of tragedy going on.
You're going to contemplate next about why? Why are you even crying? What is the reason for your grief? Why are you miserable? You'll then replay everything in your head, try to get back to how you felt before you actually broke down. But you will just fail.
It's the same old reason, that thing that happened ages ago. It's still him and the things in you that are tangled up on the thought of him. It was the same pain you thought you already forgotten. Then you'll just cry even more because neither him nor you could change the way you feel.
It is the same pain, one that never really left, one that stayed. You will wish he stayed longer than the pain he brought, than the love you wished never remained. It is easy to be in love. You can be in love with how someone talks, stares, walks, laughs, looks, the way they treat you, the way they make you feel. But it is not easy to stay in love.
When you love someone, you learn to love them from their good parts up to their worst parts. You will love them without conditions, without demands, beyond rules, fearlessly, without limits. Even if all they do is give you is make your heart ache, you would still love them.
Once you love someone, it really never fades. But just because you love them so much doesn't mean you'll stay and tolerate them forever. Sometimes, when you've already had enough, you'll realize that it's better to love them from a distance. In love, there is also sacrifice, there is also pain.
My love for you will never fade and along with that, there's pain. This is the kind of pain that never fades, that stays.