From Our Readers: The Pains of a Long Distance Lover
I was reading through the screenshots of the messages we shared before. It hurts a lot to see how we started things in the right direction and ended up on the wrong road. We had high hopes, promises of seeing each other, and patience to stick around. I know the feelings we shared for each other were real. I know you're just pushing me away to make things easier for me. And the situation we're in has forced you to believe that love is dead.
Even though you deny your feelings a million times, even though you push me away, I still love you like I did before. I understand that the sleepless nights we've been through for having each other on our minds wasn't enough to satisfy our desires. So we ended up this way. It could've been a potential relationship but I guess we're built to fall apart.
It could've been a potential relationship but I guess we're built to fall apart.
I shouldn't blamed you for hurting me. The pain I've been through was partly because of me. I played with fire so I got burnt. I took the risk of falling in love with someone who lives far away from me.
You, in return, took advantage of that. Don't say that you didn't feel anything towards me now that every hope we had has faded away. I know you did. It's just that you couldn't accept it because it was either too painful or inappropriate to let yourself fall in love and risk your bruised ego. I guess we are just both victims of the circumstances and the ugly fate that has been woven for us.
I guess we are just both victims of the circumstances and the ugly fate that has been woven for us.ADVERTISEMENT - CONTINUE READING BELOW
I'd like to believe that you loved me, too, that you were also hurt that we haven't seen each other in a while. We both wanted to see each other so bad. We have waited for years until one of us was ready to take a chance. But life somehow got in the way. Things weren't easy and they got harder as each day without you passed by. The right time that we have both been waiting for didn't come.
Frustrations and disappointments creep in. We started becoming impatient and hopeless. We felt like we have already wasted a lot of time hoping for something that wouldn't even come. A lot of drama happened and the tension between us is heating up like a ball of fire.
Frustrations and disappointments creep in. We started becoming impatient and hopeless. We felt like we have already wasted a lot of time hoping for something that wouldn't even come.ADVERTISEMENT - CONTINUE READING BELOW
You told me that you other things would be easier than being in a long distance relationship, but you like going through the challenge with me. I never really thought that someone is willing to spend so much of their precious time on me even if I wasn't ready to take the risk.
For that, I thank you. Thank you for keeping the friendship alive all these years even if things got difficult. I know it was fueled by passion and desire for finally expressing our emotions physically. Even so, I'd like to believe that there is love between us. Even just an ounce of it. Even just something friends feel toward each other. Even it was a fleeting moment. Because I know that deep down that even if we were built to fall apart, we would eventually find ourselves together.
Because I know that deep down that even if we were built to fall apart, we would eventually find ourselves together.ADVERTISEMENT - CONTINUE READING BELOW
We both have tried to wait for each other, but it didn't work out the way we wanted it to be. We would always be open to another chance, another try. I don't know how many chances we still had. It would be an endless chase of the unknown for me.
I'd forever be curious about what it's like to be with you now. I've felt too many emotions that I tried to live in the moment but failed to do so, because the only thing I did was wait and hope for the future. That part when we finally get together. Finally. Even if we are both impatient now. For that, I'm sorry because I've caused you too much trouble. I'm sorry if I somehow got in the way of achieving the life that you want. I hope I didn't. Those were four amazing years.
So I guess this shall end here—the drama and the rollercoaster ride we both enjoyed and got tired of. I'd love it if you stayed. You should've stayed. But I'll be selfish if I asked you to.ADVERTISEMENT - CONTINUE READING BELOW
After all, I believe you already have the life that you wanted and I have no place in it. That's better. I've always wanted the best for you, anyway.
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To the Person Who Does Not Know Any 1D Song
By: CJ Reyno
Never in my wildest dream I imagined to meet someone who does not know a single One Direction song or who does not even know, Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson, Liam Payne, Niall Horan, and err… Zayn Malik. How did you spend your teenagehood without listening to their songs? The disrespect to my #StyPayHorLikSon. My initial reaction, Vas Happenin’?
Since I was 12 years old, that was way back on 2012, One Direction songs have been my official life soundtrip, my go-to songs whenever I feel happy, sad, mad, excited, and etch. I can still remember how people went crazy just to attend their concert here in the Philippines. I must admit, I was one of those. LOL. The group was also dubbed as, “The Biggest Boyband in the World”. They were an era. You really left me in awe when you told me that you do not know a single One Direction song. Their songs are gold. But I was a little hopeful when a new messaged popped up on our conversation, “Hey I know one, Make You Beautiful”.
You do not know how my world collapsed after reading your message. I would like to say that I appreciate the effort, thanks, but they do not have a song entitled, Make You Beautiful, because it is, What Makes You Beautiful. I tried to explain but you said that they are just the same. (Tip: Never fight with a Directioner when it comes to this because we will not let our guards down). No! They are not the same. How can you make this big mistake? LOL. What Makes You Beautiful is One Direction’s debut song. Almost everyone knows this, “you’re insecure, don’t know what for,” ring a bell? The music video of this surpassed 1 billion views on Youtube. On my 21 years of existence, you are the very first person who told me this “I-Thought-It-Was-A-Joke-But-You-Are-Serious” statement.
As a persuasive fangirl, I thought to myself that I should make you appreciate their music, that you should know that it is What Makes You Beautiful, not Make You Beautiful. The group may be in hiatus but their music is and will always remain superior. You are hard-headed lad. We even when to the point where you challenged me to treat so I can make you watch their music video. Am I even surprised that I agreed to this? HAHA. I feel like an agent trying to persuade her customer to buy a property on our company. You do not know how happy I was when you sent me your video listening to What Makes You Beautiful. I felt like I successfully closed a deal with my client. Not to exaggerate but I really jumped because of happiness after watching your video. It was the first message I checked that morning. Thank you for your effort, so much appreciated. Funny how our conversation starts with your innocence on One Direction until it goes deeper and last longer. Up All Nigh conversations which turned to almost Midnight Memories. Ironic how a Directioner had developed an admiration on someone who dislikes her favorite boys? Just like One Direction’s song, Change My Mind, “Never felt like this before. Are we friends or are we more?” I guess, like Liam’s line on Love You Goodbye, “It's inevitable everything that's good comes to an end. It's impossible to know if after this we can still be friends.”
I was happy that I made you listen to One Direction. At least I made you appreciate and made you aware that there is a song called, What Makes You Beautiful, not Make You Beautiful. I am happy that you already found your Girl Almighty. Wish me luck on finding my Summer Love. xoxo, Your Directioner friend
Here's a fan art that I made for Lee Joo Young of Itaewon class! I've been making digital illustration since last year and I'm happy that I was able to see my improvements. I'm also happy to see people's reactions and support for my craft even though all of it are made through my phone (adobe illustrator) only ????. You don't actually have to use expensive or complicated medium as long as you know how to be creative and like what you're doing, then you can do it. ????