Candy Feels

From Our Readers: The Pain of a Non-Existent Goodbye

The kind of goodbye that was never really said.
PHOTO Unsplash

It was summer when we uttered out hellos and said our names. It was during one beautiful sunset when I knew that you would forever occupy a place in my heart, in my thoughts, and steal a piece of me.

Things that come without warning are the things that often last, but you came in like a breeze and nonetheless stayed like that. You were a breath of air so strong, so full, so noticeable. Yet as soon as I knew you was the time that you dissipated, you were gone like you never existed.

From the moment I saw your eyes, I knew you were nothing but a dormant hurricane, a foreboding of fate. I knew that all my days, I'll forever have your face as a sweet memory, a fading portrait. 

What we had sprung from scrap, and we made it beautiful without giving it a name. What we shared were smiles that screamed happiness. We just hoped that somehow, what we had will always be what we'll have. You were a beautiful mess and I was a canvass left in oblivion. We were a pair that complemented each other intensely, everyone around us cowered. We were art. What we had were built in just a span of days yet a promise of an endless tale was already evident in our eyes. What we had was nameless yet it kept us burning, it ignited our hearts, fueled our hungry souls that searched for happiness for so long.

ADVERTISEMENT - CONTINUE READING BELOW
CONTINUE READING BELOW
Recommended Videos

You were a beautiful mess and I was a canvas left in oblivion. We were a pair that complemented each other intensely, everyone around us cowered. We were art.

I thought that was it, I thought my search for bliss was finally over for I have you right next to me, under the radiant reign of the sun, under the glistening eyes of the world. Weeks passed, you were nowhere to be found. You disappeared under my heart's radar, like a smoke joining the wind. Your words that promised a myriad of good things were heard no more. Your voice that once sent my thoughts uproaring was nowhere to be heard. You left me faster than you came.

You left me faster than you came.

What have I done wrong? Was I too much to handle? Was I too in love? I never knew one could lose someone just because of caring too much.  The time you left was the time I jumped and took the fall, but then you were not there just like you promised me before. The words you ever so lovingly said were left to be cultivated and propped alive by me. 

ADVERTISEMENT - CONTINUE READING BELOW

What have I done wrong? Was I too much to handle? Was I too in love? I never knew one could lose someone just because of caring too much.  

I was left alone and I was drowning in the world your words have created. I was left drowning in the promises that you nonchalantly uttered. I was in a state of calamity and you were not there to pull me from the current. You were only there for the good times.

The goodbye that you owe me is what I have always prayed for. Our love may be lost and our time may have passed, a word of parting from you is what I want for my last.

your REACTION
HEART

45

YAY

5

OMG

2

CUTE

1

/////////////////////////////
COMMENTS. JOIN THE DISCUSSION BELOW!
Comments
VIEW more ARTICLES ABOUT

Candy Bulletin

Welcome!
What're you up to today? Submit your OOTD, fanfic, essay, school project, org event, a pic of your latest hobby, or anything you want to be posted on the Candy Bulletin page!
Reminder: Posts will be subject for approval by the Candy team, and may be shared on our online channels. Plagiarism and copyright infringement are strictly prohibited. Only original work must be submitted.
Hi, you!
*1st 15 seconds will be uploaded
*File size limit (up to 60MB)
*File size limit (up to 60MB)
or
Upload Video
*For the direct video upload option, only the first 15 seconds of the video will be uploaded
*File size limit (up to 60MB)
Photo
Video
SoundCloud

By submitting your post, you agree to Candymag's Terms of Use and Privacy Policy.

Thank you for submitting your post.
You will be notified via email once your entry has been approved by the Candy team.

Submitted posts will be subject to the approval of the Candy Team.

A few reminders:

  1. Candy Bulletin is an online platform where users can upload original work, personal passion projects, and other forms of self-expression, for the purpose of sharing with the community.
  2. You can upload photos of your curated OOTDs, 15-second videos, essays, poems, and more, as long as the submitted work is original, follows copyright laws, and free of any nudity, pornography, or profanity.
  3. You are encouraged to comment on one another's posts, as long as everyone remains respectful.
Submit Another Post
latest on CandyMag.com
 
x
Share
While it is technically K's special day, Crystal said she was the one who received a gift from her mom.
 
x
Share
 
x
Share
The show brought joy to millions, but a number of its cast have experienced unimaginable tragedies.
LOAD MORE ARTICLES
Bulletin
A community page where you can share your feels and show your skills! Learn more here

A Simple Learner Who's a Great Pretender

Maybe I'm just a learner, not a weirdo. A learner that knows how to listen and pretend. A simple learner who's a great pretender. Pretending to be slightly dumb enough not to be judged and criticized by those who do not appreciate my existence. We surround ourselves with people who's levels are either beyond or below our intellectual behavior, because as for reality, people may use you either for their success or your downfall. Since then, people tend to judge someone who has an intellect with things they shouldn't be. Making them a criticizer, and most of all, calling them weird.

Honestly, I'm one of this "weirdo" who actually loves to learn things, and for the record, I'm bullied and stressed out for making myself not to learn more and go with the flow to dumbness I had. Have you ever feel being assigned to some task where you know every process to make it easier and faster to finish but turns out to hesitate to voice out because some of your mates put themselves in charge. There are times where I know what to do, what to say, or how to react, but kept myself silent and pretend not to know anything that may help us. Maybe it's a good thing to just go with their ideas and learn from their perspectives, but sometimes you can't control it and says something, and once again called to be a weirdo and let you finish the work by yourself.

It's annoying that you only know one process yet they gave you the whole work and let you finish it by yourself because they insist that "MAGALING KA DIBA?". It's not your fault being an intellectual person, knowing such things that may help you to pursue your dreams, and have the basic knowledge about something. You don't need to know everything, just the basics. And as for those people who do not appreciate your existence, let them be and continue what's the best for you. In some cases, you'll be annoyed by this but most of the time you'll be thankful for it. Not for now but maybe later. Just be yourself either a weirdo, a great pretender, or a simple learner, and always remember to lower your voice and behavior because no one loves that.

Just be a great pretender not to hear any runts and be a good learner that appreciates everything. It's out of nowhere thoughts of mine, but simply I leave you this my favorite life quotation; "Don't introduce yourself, Let your success introduce you"

your REACTION
Pick a sticker to view stories by reaction!
/////////////////////////////
CONNECT WITH US