From Our Readers: Read This When You Feel That You’re Not Good Enough
There are times when I wonder why some things don't always turn out the way we planned them. I get disappointed and frustrated easily every time I don't see what I wanted to see. I don't really know why I'm like this; it's like I'm always disappointing myself. I can't even end a day without having a bad feeling about myself. Even when I wake up in the morning, thinking that everything is going to be okay, I realize later on that that's not going to happe.
What college life taught me is that everything is not going to be easy; things are going to suck sometimes.
I am stressed out every time I don't perform well in school. I remember this one moment when four of my friends were on the dean's list except for me. God knows how frustrated I was that time. I almost made it, but my efforts always weren't enough. I've tried so hard, but why is it still hard for me to achieve something? I just feel so worthless, and I don't know what I did wrong to deserve it. I always tend to blame myself for not being good enough. I even doubt myself when I try to explore new things; I always think that it will not turn out fine.
It feels a little too much and I'm tired of disappointing myself anymore. Sometimes I feel like life is so unfair. I feel envious of people who don't even need to try and still do well. I remember reading all the positive thoughts and motivation online just to cheer me up, but they didn't really help. I hate looking at myself and realizing that I don't like what I see.
But there was one moment when I gained my self-esteem back. That moment when I felt proud of myself for that little achievement I got. Later on, I realized that I was busy trying to bring myself down that I didn't see that I can do better, that I am so much more than how I thought of myself. I just have to believe in myself and learn to love my imperfections.
I realized that I was busy trying to bring myself down that I didn't see that I can do better, that I am so much more than how I thought of myself.ADVERTISEMENT - CONTINUE READING BELOW
At this point in life, growing up hasn't been easy. But one important thing I've learned is that it's okay not to be okay. It's okay to feel that pain. It's okay to fail. Don't be afraid of failing and end up refusing to try something new. Instead, use it as your motivation, use it as the reason why you need to be strong and strive hard for the things that make your life worth it.
Sometimes it gets a little too much of pain for us to learn. After all, nothing will happen if you only focus on the things that weigh you down because no one can lift you up but yourself. Sometimes it gets a little too much of courage to face the reality and accept every challenge in life. We all have struggles, but you shouldn't always let yourself be consumed by negativity. You also need to help yourself to see things differently. Even if it seems hard, you should look at things from the outside. Maybe it happened because it is where you're meant to be. We must learn to look and evaluate every aspect of life. Always have faith in Him, and always keep in mind that everything happens for a reason.
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To the Person Who Does Not Know Any 1D Song
By: CJ Reyno
Never in my wildest dream I imagined to meet someone who does not know a single One Direction song or who does not even know, Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson, Liam Payne, Niall Horan, and err… Zayn Malik. How did you spend your teenagehood without listening to their songs? The disrespect to my #StyPayHorLikSon. My initial reaction, Vas Happenin’?
Since I was 12 years old, that was way back on 2012, One Direction songs have been my official life soundtrip, my go-to songs whenever I feel happy, sad, mad, excited, and etch. I can still remember how people went crazy just to attend their concert here in the Philippines. I must admit, I was one of those. LOL. The group was also dubbed as, “The Biggest Boyband in the World”. They were an era. You really left me in awe when you told me that you do not know a single One Direction song. Their songs are gold. But I was a little hopeful when a new messaged popped up on our conversation, “Hey I know one, Make You Beautiful”.
You do not know how my world collapsed after reading your message. I would like to say that I appreciate the effort, thanks, but they do not have a song entitled, Make You Beautiful, because it is, What Makes You Beautiful. I tried to explain but you said that they are just the same. (Tip: Never fight with a Directioner when it comes to this because we will not let our guards down). No! They are not the same. How can you make this big mistake? LOL. What Makes You Beautiful is One Direction’s debut song. Almost everyone knows this, “you’re insecure, don’t know what for,” ring a bell? The music video of this surpassed 1 billion views on Youtube. On my 21 years of existence, you are the very first person who told me this “I-Thought-It-Was-A-Joke-But-You-Are-Serious” statement.
As a persuasive fangirl, I thought to myself that I should make you appreciate their music, that you should know that it is What Makes You Beautiful, not Make You Beautiful. The group may be in hiatus but their music is and will always remain superior. You are hard-headed lad. We even when to the point where you challenged me to treat so I can make you watch their music video. Am I even surprised that I agreed to this? HAHA. I feel like an agent trying to persuade her customer to buy a property on our company. You do not know how happy I was when you sent me your video listening to What Makes You Beautiful. I felt like I successfully closed a deal with my client. Not to exaggerate but I really jumped because of happiness after watching your video. It was the first message I checked that morning. Thank you for your effort, so much appreciated. Funny how our conversation starts with your innocence on One Direction until it goes deeper and last longer. Up All Nigh conversations which turned to almost Midnight Memories. Ironic how a Directioner had developed an admiration on someone who dislikes her favorite boys? Just like One Direction’s song, Change My Mind, “Never felt like this before. Are we friends or are we more?” I guess, like Liam’s line on Love You Goodbye, “It's inevitable everything that's good comes to an end. It's impossible to know if after this we can still be friends.”
I was happy that I made you listen to One Direction. At least I made you appreciate and made you aware that there is a song called, What Makes You Beautiful, not Make You Beautiful. I am happy that you already found your Girl Almighty. Wish me luck on finding my Summer Love. xoxo, Your Directioner friend
Here's a fan art that I made for Lee Joo Young of Itaewon class! I've been making digital illustration since last year and I'm happy that I was able to see my improvements. I'm also happy to see people's reactions and support for my craft even though all of it are made through my phone (adobe illustrator) only ????. You don't actually have to use expensive or complicated medium as long as you know how to be creative and like what you're doing, then you can do it. ????