From Our Readers: I Wish I Didn't Let a Guy Come Between Us
We never have left each other's side ever since we met on the bus. To me, it seemed life started liking me enough to give me the best person in the world. My world started rotating around you, whenever you needed me I was there and same with you. But as time went by, I was blinded by the thought of love. It was when I had my first boyfriend and I realized one thing: he was getting in the way of our friendship.
It seemed life started liking me enough to give me the best person in the world.
I didn't realize it before, but I have now and it got even worse when I went out with someone else. You yourself were going through challening times. You needed me and guess what? I became a ghost. I know sorry doesn't fix the pain I have caused you, but I am hoping that you'll accept my aplogy, even if I know it seems fake if you go through my old apologies.
Yes, I miss you coming over to my place and me coming over yours almost all the time, half our stuff being in each other's houses that we couldn't even tell if the clothes were mine or yours. We were tight and I miss that.
Love has made me blinded to see the pain I have caused you and not only that. The truth is, I paid more attention to my ex more than you because I was scared, scared because I've realized that I started developing feelings for you not just as a friend. It slowly started becoming more than that. I knew who I was then, but I didn't want to ruin the great friendship we had, which is why when you asked me if I had a crush on you I said no. I regret that. I should've told you the truth. That way I wouldn't have to hide. Whenever any of your exes or boyfriends hurt you, I've always wanted to ask them to stop. And all I really wanted was to tell you how I felt.
Now its too late. Yet there's one thing I want you to know: I miss my best friend. Yes, I was a bad friend but if I could go back in time, I would fix everything and make sure we're still okay. I would hug you like I'll lose you any second now because I value our friendship more than ever. I have realized that without you, I'm just the shell of the person I used to be. Without you I'm practically nothing. I guess I realized those things a bit late, huh?
I am foolish, but I want you to know that I could never have another friend like you because you are the best there is. You made me who I am today and everytime I go online and see how you're feeling, I feel so guilty that I wasn't there. Guilty that you won't let me in anymore because of how I acted before. I really do apologize because you are still my star and you forever will be my star.
Even if you don't forgive me, I'll be here as a shoulder to cry on, as an ear to listen, and I'll be here through the hard times. I swear I've learned my lesson and never again will I ever let a guy come between us again because guess what?
I'll be your moon when you feel like the world is too dark. I'll be your wheelchair when you feel like you can't walk anymore. I'll be your rock because from now on, I'll always be here and I'll never, ever let a guy come between us again.