From Our Readers: I Thought We Will Make It Through Time and Distance
I've said those two words already like it will ever be enough, like they could make everything go back to the way it was, like they could ever stop the pain.
I know they won't.
But still I say those words. And I could say them a thousand times more. If only those two words could just mend our broken hearts. Your heart. Our broken relationship.
I never knew that true love could just vanish like that. Yes, I believe that what we had was true. I know you do, too. It's very real. In fact, it's the realest thing that's ever happened to me. It's my reality. I loved you and I love how it felt to be loved by you. Why do good things come to an end? I know it's stupid of me to ask when this is all my fault.
For not telling you that it started to feel like a dream. That the distance started to bother me. That every time we meet again after four or five or six months, I was scared. Like a hazy view, we started to blur out. You became the dream that I kept on chasing. Our time together felt like a dream that I kept on holding on to. I was scared so I kept on dreaming, pretending that I'm okay to be in that dream with you.
I was always scared.
Because your presence was always accompanied by the fact that you will eventually have to leave. You started to be the person that I constantly have to say goodbye to and I could never get used to that.
It's such a sweet, painful dream, and I'm sorry.
I woke up every time from the same dream and reality kicks me right in the gut. I didn't mind it at first. Reality could beat me black and blue, and I'll fight back. But it's draining, love. I'm not strong enough.
It's hard to dream anymore.
I'm so sorry.
My feelings for you, I can't feel them, I can't find them anymore. They must've left with you every time we kissed goodbye. They must've waited until you got home. They must've accompanied you wherever you needed to go. They must've gotten lost along the way.
I'm going to regret this. I know I will regret this. But I can't love you with a heart that's empty. With feelings, lost. With a mind, made up. Made up to let us go. You don't deserve that.
Only time can tell if we'll ever get back together. And if the universe conspires for us to end up with different people, I just hope that we find a love that's stronger. A love that we deserve. A love that in some distant memory, we used to keep but now we can no longer have.
I'm sorry. Our time is up.
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Imagine you are holding a photograph. There, there you are. A 5-year-old you is being carried by her momma and papa while holding your rag dolls. That innocent, charming little girl is looking at you and said, "Where are you now?"
Life is filled with several U-turns and unexpected twists of events and during these times in which silver spoons are nowhere to be found: Our families ensure we still get and experience the best as we survive this pandemic. Here's my song, I wrote back 2 years ago entitled: "Won't Let You Cry" and take time to honor and appreciate our parents as they are the biggest front liners in our lives throughout the years.
If you're still single now, there are probably a a lot of questions running in your head. But being on your own for a long time helps you discover more about yourself. It's more than just freedom or independence. It's facing the world with so much courage. It's trying to make the most of your life without having to depend on someone. It's being happy on your own and loving yourself with all that you are.
We've been chasing love only to realize that it's not gonna work out that way. The right time will come that you will be blessed with the one you deserve. The one who also prayed to be with you. The one who will make you believe in love again. Let life surprise you. Hang in there.
The most thrilling and delightful moment of any school day is opening up your baon during breaks. There is always so much excitement in unveiling your homemade meal and snacks housed inside matching heat-insulating containers. Because preparing packed meals is an age-old tradition of showing parental love, loved ones pour effort into curating a nutritious meal accompanied by a selection of side dishes, desserts, and beverages daily; it reminds us that we are being taken care of, even from far away.
Baon plays a significant role in a Filipino childhood. Almost every Filipino child comes to school with baon made especially for them by their parents or household helpers. Even Filipinos in the labor force continue to bring baon for varying reasons: to save money, recycle leftovers, cater to personal taste, or attend to special needs. Nonetheless, eating your baon is a heart-warming experience that allows Filipinos to bring a piece of home along with them wherever they go.
Even other cultures practice making packed lunch. In Japan, mothers create bento--Japanese meals in partitioned boxes. Because of the popularity of bento, trends have emerged, such as the Kyaraben, or character-themed bento. Naturally, Japanese parents and students began competing for who had the cutest and tastiest bento, and this is similar to what I have witnessed in my own childhood. I remember seeing my classmates sharing their snacks and lunches. They would compare and boast about their parents' or yayas’ cooking. In my case, I never had the chance to join in the competition or indulge in homemade cooking. Up until this day, I have never brought any baon to school.
For a long time, I envied others. As trivial or petty as it may seem, not having baon became a problem for my grade school self. During that time, I had to sit in a separate cafeteria away from my friends because the kids who bought food were assigned to sit elsewhere. You could consider me spoiled, but I wanted to experience something most kids did. I had food at home, so what made it so hard to bring some with me to school?
Now that I am on my final year in high school I have come to realize the benefits of purchasing my own food. Since I spent on food everyday, I learned to budget my allowance at a young age. Over the years, I learned to practice self-control whenever I wanted to eat more greasy fries and drink sweetened beverages. I have tasted the strangest viands at the school cafeterias, and I have repeatedly satiated myself over my latest delicious discoveries. Despite the struggles, I am thankful that I have never had baon because of what I have learned. Not to mention, I never had to experience eating cold food.
Literally to begin with, I am writing with little shaky hands because this is the last time I went for a vacation like most of us must have and can’t plan any for now. The coronavirus outbreak has compelled us to stay at home for our safety and others in the vicinity.
I remember how I penned down my year 2020 to be the most remarkable year of my life in the hope of doing everything I desired for a long time and overcoming few obstacles. Whilst planning things ahead, I forgot to truly value all of things in the present.
I remember being chipper and grateful for my last summer vacation but now I feel I should’ve valued each and every moment. Considering the current gnarly situation, I want each one us to motivate ourselves to look for a positive side and to make the most of our time no matter the situation.
Make a promise to yourself that you won’t give up in these circumstances and reckon that there are a lot of good things for us in the store. We’ll have the most amazing season of our life post pandemic. Let’s accept for the change and become the change. Propagate love and only love.