From Our Readers: I Never Friendzoned You, I Was Just Not Ready
We were still in high school when I found out you liked me. It was not a big deal for me because I had a huge crush on someone else, and because we were in the same circle. You started messaging me on Facebook, liking my tweets, and you would also say greet me in school. Everything was normal for me because you're my kabarkada.
Before we graduated, you gave me a lot of gifts—chocolates, flowers, food! Well, for me, they were just gifts from a good friend. I'm sorry for not appreaciating those things because I was just focusing on the guy that I liked, and that wasn't you.
We went to the same school in college, but we took different courses. I can't see you everyday in school but I think your eyes are following me. You would also tweet about what I'm wearing on Washday Wednesdays. It seems like I had a stalker, but it was just funny. You always offered to drive me home, which I took because you are my long-time friend and I trust you. You brought me food. You knew my favorites. You knew me so well.
I was getting used to all these beautiful, sweet things. But they weren't enough to make me want to take our friendship to the next level.
I ended up apologizing because I can't see the possibility of us getting together. I never meant to hurt you, but it would also be unfair to you if I said yes half-heartedly. I know it's not easy for you but I'm sorry if I caused you a lot of pain. I'm sorry for breaking your heart slowly. I'm sorry for taking you for granted. Please don't think that I just took advantage of your kindness. I value our friendship.
Lately, I'm starting to miss your texts. I miss your jokes. I miss spending time with you. I'm missing them all. But what's important is I'm missing you.
I feel foolish for not letting myself fall for you because I was just afraid of falling in love again. I don't want to get hurt and get played with again. It took a lot of time for me to realize and see the great things that you did for me. I was amazed that you made me feel special for a long time. You had everything that I was looking for but I was blind. I never saw how much you loved me—like a message I read too late. You weren't just a friend to me.
I'm sad that I already cut the bond between us. Things aren't like the way they were before. I should've seen you before. I need you back, and I hope it's not yet too late.