From Our Readers: I Just Can't Love You
Thank you. Thank you because for a couple of days, I got to know you. Thank you because you spent your time staying up late just to talk to me. I appreciated that especially since you aren't used to sleeping late and you endured those long nights just for me.
Thank you for your kind words. I don't get compliments often, and I am not really used to hearing those. Thank you for taking a risk even if you're not into these things. Thank you for the calls and text messages. Thank you for trying.
However, I don't want to be unfair. I heard you clearly when you said that you do not want things to be one-sided. I do not want things to be that way as well. That is why, as early as now, I am trying to fix this.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry because I cannot let this continue. I cannot let things worsen. I do not want to put both of us in trouble. I don't want you to keep on trying when I know things won't ever work out in the end. I hate seeing your efforts go to waste. I don't want to give you false hopes.
I can't watch you break your heart because I've seen how nice you are. I know that you are kind, real, and pure. I've seen you treat everyone with respect. That is why I adore you. You are such a great guy. You have everything every girl looks for in a man.
But love is something we cannot force. We cannot create it. It just happens. The moment you see your other half for the first time, you just feel the connection. Love is something we cannot predict.
And that's the problem. I just don't see that with us. Maybe, we'll work out as friends because I'm comfortable being with you. But I am afraid that we will not work out as lovers. I want you to know that I tried. And you know that I don't take chances often. Maybe you can't see it. Maybe you won't even appreciate it. But I really tried. I tried to go out of my comfort zone just to be with you.
This isn't easy for me too. I hate it every time things don't work out, and you have to tell someone that its not working. But you have to assure them that things will turn out fine, even if you really don't know if they do.
I am sorry. I am sorry, really sorry. What else can I do? We can't force things to happen. I just want to be kind. I just want to lessen the casualties I am causing you. But, I guess this is the best thing to do now. Being honest is kindness. Thank you and I am sorry.