From Our Readers: I Actually Notice Every Little Thing About You
I knew everything.
I knew you were going to leave me.
I knew you never really loved me.
I still loved you anyway.
I knew that I was just some pastime for you.
I knew you were just pretending.
I knew it because when you love someone,
you notice every little thing about him.
And I love you, that's why.
I was the only one who noticed your lonely smiles, or how you slowly lost weight.
I was the only one who noticed how sad your eyes were.
I noticed every bit of change in you.
I noticed how those sweet messages turned into a one-word replies.
I noticed how I Love Yous turned to I Miss Yous, and then nothing at all.
I noticed how you were getting tired of me, even though you were telling me you were not.
I noticed how you never went out of your way to see me.
I noticed how I was the only one who cared.
I noticed how you never looked into my eyes when you were telling me that you love me.
I noticed how you pretended to listen to my stories.
I noticed how you never even remembered which way I took going home.
I knew that you only held on to me because you were not okay that time, and you were benefitting from me emotionally.
I noticed how you were gradually distancing yourself from be because you were getting better.
Meanwhile, I was getting depressed because I was being taken for granted.
I knew that my negativity would be bad for you, so you were planning on leaving me.
And I noticed how you were just waiting for the right moment to leave.
Then you left.
You left because you no longer got anything from me.
You left simply because you got tired of pretending.
Your lies, I knew them all.
You thought you were fooling me, but you were not.
I knew this was bound to happen but I never thought it would be too soon.
I was caught off guard.
I can not stop the pain.
I love you, I still do.
I'm sorry because you don't find me useful anymore.
You don't have to listen to my boring stories anymore, or bother texting me.
You don't have to pretend that you're happy with me anymore.
More importantly, you don't have to lie to me anymore.
I never believed you anyway because all along, I knew everything.