Everybody go through this but not everyone gets over it—whether you're a six-year-old singing at your family gathering or an 18-year-old getting into college or even a 21-year-old facing unemployment.
I have been struggling with low self-esteem since forever. I cannot say that I'm an introvert or that I'm just shy, because I am far from being those. I have a lot of lovely friends and most of the time, I am up for different tasks like public speaking or acting on stage. Others even think that I am so confident, but I am not.
I have been struggling with low self-esteem since forever. I cannot say that I'm an introvert or that I'm just shy, because I am far from being those.
I have done those things to simply reassure myself that somehow, I am worthy. I didn't do those things because I believe in myself but because I don't. Then later on, even performing became less and less fulfilling. That really stopped me from growing.
I started thinking that I can't do anything by myself. It made me dependent on others and hide behind the curtains, always watching from afar. My self-doubt got stronger over time and I succumbed to reading books in my room, spending less and less time with others. I struggled a lot. It got worse because I was constantly judged by others and because I always compared myself to others. Until one day, I had enough.
Fake it until you make it, a saying that's been with me for a long time. I am not saying it's bad or it's good or that it works, but that helped me a lot when I was starting. Slowly I began going out more, learning new stuff, and getting into things I never knew I could. At first, there's this nagging feeling that says it's just a one time thing and that I can't do it again.
I pushed through. A lot of things helped me. I have this scrapbook of my life events that I regularly update. It became a diary to me and helped me realize a lot of things. It's like a memory lane. The first poem I wrote, the script of my first play I worked on, the IDs of various events and organizations I've been part of.
As I looked at them I see myself being brave and bold. I start really believing more and more on what I am capable of. I continously avoided comparing myself to others. It's hard, I know. But it is true that you should count your blessings. Always. Surround yourself with people who support you because a positive environment is key. Belief in God is also the answer. Overcoming your self-doubt is a continous process. But don't ever think you're worthless because nothing and nobody is. Look in the mirror and see the beauty in your scars. We all have one or two or even a lot. But they are scars from various battles that made you strong.
Look in the mirror and see the beauty in your scars. We all have one or two or even a lot. But they are scars from various battles that made you strong.