Letting go of someone who means so much to you is painful. It will break your heart. You'll cry yourself almost every night until you fall asleep. You wake up in the morning hoping the pain will just leave you alone.
It is sad to know that the person you used to know so well just isn't there anymore.
The person who became your inspiration to fulfill your dreams isn't around to see you succeed and fulfill them. The person listened to you even you talked nonsense and spent hours on the phone exchanging text messages even when it's late at night and the one who will call you and sometimes sing his favorite songs to you over the phone is nowhere now.
I hate myself because I miss him. I miss those times when he told me everything, his whereabouts, his gigs, where he was at the moment. I miss the old times when I was still the one who could make him smile the biggest and laugh the loudest. I spent years and years hoping that someday we will end up together. That soon he will tell me that I am the one he needs and loves.
I waited for something to happen, but there was nothing.
My heart got tired of waiting. It's just now that I realize what I was to him. And now that I know, I can finally let go of the drama I've brought myself. I must move forward and continue my life without him. I choose to finally let go of him because there is nothing to hold on to anymore. He left me hanging and confused. I could not ask for closure because there was never an us.
Someday, I am hoping that I could find a man who will value my worth and my time, who sees me and is afraid to lose me. Now I am ready to face the future and move on with my life without him. My heart and my mind are now open for what lies ahead. It's ready to forget the past heartaches and move on.