I can still remember how you smiled at me and waved your hand while we were both being introduced to each other. I gave you a grin then looked at your brown eyes. It felt like time stopped as we stared at each other.
I can't deny the fact that every time our eyes meet, my heart races. I get this weird feeling inside my stomach, like butterflies flying and birds chirpring. As you walked by, I can feel my cheeks burning as they turn read. Everything else becomes a blur as I focus my gaze on you. I can't help but notice how cute you are as you go about your daily activities.
I can't understand this feeling I have towards you. There are times when we bump into each other, and I just don't like them. I hate those moments when I had to sit next to you, be beside you. Every time we get the chance to talk, I would act cold and harsh towards you. I know I don't actually hate you, but being close to you feels like I can't stand myself anymore. That unfamiliar feeling is intoxicating, a battle raging between my heart as I become self-conscious.
I like you, but I couldn't admit it to myself. I deny myself this feeling because I am trapped in my own isolation.
A part of me feels the bitterness of my soul. I am afraid of falling deeply. I easily fall in love, you see, which is why I distance myself from you. To me, you are kryptonite. You are the lyrics to my favorite song and the reason behind every piece I write. I am easily driven by my emotions and I also easily give in. But I know I need to let this go. It is starting to suffocate me. I tried bearing the pain of secretly loving you from a far. You're just too good to be true, you are intangible, too close yet too far.
I want to get closer to you but destiny tells me I should not.
Perhaps there will always be a battle between my thoughts and my feelings towards you. A feeling that is invincible, I can't fight it but I need to. I need to because I have to. If I go beyond my limitations I know I'll fail because I was too late. I tried reaching out to you but then time stopped me.
This is where we find ourselves lost in fantasy. We forget to live in reality. So I'm choosing to end our story right here, as my heart sinks. I am lost again. Maybe our story doesn't end here, let us just allow fate to lead us. You were the right person at the right time yet I chose to let you slip away from my hands. Until next time, to where destiny might lead us.