When I was young, I saw college as a place only the bravest of hearts could enter. I thought of college students as superheroes because they were able to leave their homes for so long and come back with brand new stories to tell. And I knew that one day, I'll be one of them.
When I finished high school, I was beyond ecstatic. Finally, I'd be in college—the place where I'd shine, where I felt I belong. But the moment I set foot in it, the moment I declared myself a part of it, I felt small. It was as if I was just another name in a sea of souls.
I was an achiever in high school but when I got into college, I struggled. I never had a study habit and a simple long exam seemed to be strenuous for me. It was not because I was dull or incompetent, I simply had no energy to do things. I felt weak and incompetent to achieve great things for myself.
I was an achiever in high school but when I got into college, I struggled.
My fears intensified when I got low scores in my Physics class. I was not an avid fan of numbers, let alone signs with corresponding values. Somehow, in the crevices of my mind, I almost wanted to give up. I almost doubted my chosen course, thinking I did not belong in it. But deep inside, I knew I can do things beyond my comprehension. I knew I had it in me to excel, yet I found myself squirming whenever I encounter even a small rift. I was not eqquiped for the extremes. Or so I thought.
I contained myself in my mind. I defined myself through my failures but, deep down, I know I was more than that. I studied hard and sacrificed my time for leisure to study. I set my priorities straight. I realized then that it was not me unable to excel and soar with flying colors just like the others; it was just my thoughts, my fears, and my lack of motivation.
I am going through a lot of pressure today, since I am in the proximity of medicals and saving lives. I know I will finish later than my friends in high school because my course takes six academic years to finish. The people around me are going through the same thing, but I won't let such pressures get to me. I will walk in my own pace, equipped with the right disposition and wisdom.
College really is a place for superheroes because even in the event of failures and self-doubt, weariness and despair, many have continued moving on and even finished strong.