The first time we became classmates was the first time I was drawn to guys who lose their eyes when they smile. But that didn't matter to me at all because for me, you were just a simple guy with small eyes that everybody loved and adored. Then we became friends and talked about things we never really told other people.
We talked silently while everyone else was busy. We got close online, and I turned shy whenever you're around. You were a nice guy trapped inside the image of a bad boy. Sometimes I'd ask myself why girls would want to hurt you, why you're lost, and why you're walking around without motivation. And that's when I realized that I was starting to hate you. I hate it when you smile. I hate it when you laugh. I hate it when you come close to me. I hate it when you talk. I hated everything about you—because I know I was falling for you. But I understand.
Focusing and determining to graduate on time is now our main focus and putting our love aside will help us get there.
We both know that being in this field is one hell of a race and we are at the peak right now. We both know that you failed once, and I really don't want to bother you and distract you. I also know you don't want me to experience the failure you had. Focusing and determining to graduate on time is now our main focus and putting our love aside will help us get there. We both have goals. We both have dreams that involve succeeding in the future and helping our families.
For now, I will focus on those things and let you go. But before I let you, I want to say that you are one of the most precious things I have ever laid eyes on. I didn't experience what you've been through but you survived it already and now you're stronger than ever. I'm not going to be your secret admirer or the girl who has a crush on you silently. Instead I am going to be that friend who supports you and motivates you because that's what matters right now before anything else, before love. And for your heart, someday the right girl who loves you deeply won't leave you. I'll be right here for you, even if you lose that smile in your eyes.