Candy Reader Poetry: The Things I'm Scared Of
I've always believed that I was strong,
Managed to convince myself for so long
That all the challenges I could take on;
But then you came and reminded me
Of all the battles with fear I thought I've won.
I found myself being afraid again,
Scared that you would leave me broken.
With the walls going down, crumbling
And my world slowly falling apart,
Forcing me to create a brand new start.
I realized I have been afraid to love
Because being in love requires vulnerability.
It demands faith even in uncertainty
And that's a weakness I could not afford.
Not at times like these in this cruel world.
But somehow, somewhere in our conversations
You've managed to get deep in my emotions.
I was almost convinced I no longer was afraid
But I knew I still was, I'm certain I still am
Because people change and feelings fade.
And now I'm afraid I was right all along
That you would leave me eventually.
Even when you promised you won't
And I'm here wondering what went wrong
With all my fears roaring loud and strong.
But what scares me most is this:
After all the pain you've put me through
With all the tears I've shed for you;
At the slightest snap of your fingers
Love, I'd still come running back to you.